x[ .anne_67. ]x..[.you were everything i wanted.]

2003-08-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

2003-04-01T03:51:00.000-08:00

[.DaMN..HaVeNT WRiTTeN iN a LOOONG ASSS TiME.]
well...a lil imput on whats been going on lately..nothing much...BELLE left us to become a TROJAN on MARCH 2oth!! but i knoe fasho she still a devil...forever...[i miss you soOo much ghurr...you dont even knoe...=PaRTNeR iN CRiME=]..there hasnt been anything interesting happening...i mean, school which is stressin the FUCK out of me...then after skool...chill for a while...then chill at my baby's house...then then go home to a crap ass house...BLAAAAAHHH...my rents were gone for about a week and a half..they were in HAWAii and it was HEAVEN for meee!!!! i loved it!!! they need to leave agen...i forgot to sign up for SATs...the last one for the year so ime screwed and i have to wait till next year...then...SADiES is coming up...theres a bunch of stoopid HOES tryna front..if yall cant talk so much shit....jes BRiNG iT!! pathetic as hell..its funnie though...and one thing thats been botherin me for a while are my guy frens..i miss them soOoOo much...i dunno whats going on...i think they got tired of us?! i have no idea..but i jes want them to knoe...ALL OF YOU GUYS..>>I MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!!!<< no kidding...i hope you guys knoe that...well, todae i went on a field trip for avid to tokyo..it was koo...TOOOO much walken though...dayam...it was hella crowded tooo...but yeah...its had some fun parts...thats it...

2003-02-09T19:18:00.000-08:00

[.bOred at hOme..dint go to skool..havent written hea in awhile.]
dayam..havent written in hea in a while..im bored though..blah blah..nothing interesting has been happening lately..from january 19 to todae?! blah blah...same ol stuff...chillen on the weekends..mongo..movies..church..eating out..skool..BRB

2003-01-19T18:21:00.000-08:00

[.HAPPY BiRTHDAE PiE-YaH!!!!!.]
damn...sorry this is written late...i was tooo lazy to go online last nite but yesterdae was funn!!! first we all went to church..then drove to ikego cuz we thought we were gon pick belle up and wen we got there she was sitting on the sidewalk playing game boy..whatta loser..haha..she rode with cat back and we all went to RED LOBSTER...yuuuum..then came back on base...we had a doope ass rode trip...right pie?? haha supppa stars! shhhyeah..wen we got on base we jes chilled....ran some arrands..got gas and dropped laybee's car back..then we were all in pie's car...drove around...chilled at my house...watched videos and stressed over the "surprise"..foreal..then it was raining?! nooo...but its koo...the guys dropped by and helped us..[THANKS SoOo MUCH GUYS!!] almost had a crisis cuz we thought that we dint get the skateland...but the guys got errthang str8...then our whoooole scenerio...haha GooD ACTING KAYBEE! haha...."but MOOMMM!!!" haha..pie believed it all...muahaha..then we went to skateland..and "SUUUUUPPPPPPLLLLLLLiiiiiEEESSS" haha...it was funn...

[happy birthdae pie!! and many more to come...thanks for everything...hope you had a great dae...sorry i dint get you anything...umm..yanno tha deal...IOU..haha...siike..im not rich! well, take care and be good!! *cuzzins 4 lyphe* --> hahahah inside jooooke!!!!!! aight..L8erz yoooo]

2003-01-17T05:22:00.000-08:00

[.grr!!! i hate coming home to this GOD-FORSAKEN house!!!!!!!!!!!gaaaaa damnit!.somebody KiLL me now!!!BLAH.]
blah blah blah...you cant blame me for always spending time with my frens...always being out and not wanting to come home...i always come home to the same thing..the same 'ol fricken thing!!!!!!! foreal...geeeezzz...either way ill get bitched at for not coming home RIGHT on time.."exams are coming up..i hope your studying?!..blah blah...your grades this and your grades that" or the "the house is soOo dirty..i want you to stay home tomorrow and clean" why dont you fucken clean it..i hardly live in this house...i dont even eat in the damn kitchen but the ones who dooooo...and make the most mess....its okae for them to leave it there...especially the man in this house...mother fucker...he makes the most mess and doesnt do shit..always bitchen at us to clean up his shit..and wen you bitch back you get the whole.."i work all day just to give you a roof over your head..the food you eat..blah blah suck my fucken cock!" i hate this shit...once i get to the fucken door i already knoe whats coming..and to add...i always end up coming home wen they bitch at my stoopid smart ass talken brother...gaaaaa damn this family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sooooomeeeeboddddyyy take mee awwaaaaayyy pleeeeeeease!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaahhhhhhhhh.........i dunno.....«FuCK THa BuLLSHiT»

2003-01-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

[.past weeked::HAPPY BiRTHDAE TO: KATHY & AUNTiE (belle'sMoM).]
daaaannggg...well, bris came back on thursdae...then on fridae we jes chilled and watched 8 MiLE...it was aight...on saturdae..chilled at mae's for the longest...mongo?? naawww...change of plans...BEEFBOWL...and then the court a few times..and decided to go to kathy's thing...karaoke...it was fun...free rounds of drinks toOo!!! yay...todae...is SUNDAE...after church...we went to MCDo..picked up bris..then mae..then drove offbase and picked up gangsta and francis..went to mae's house off base...(fucken farr) then road trip to D2...then back..all chilled at bris' house...SST...thas about it....

2003-01-03T22:22:00.000-08:00

[.great way to start the fucken new year..whateva.1o:2oAM]
damn..this whoooole week...me&kaybee..."PARTNERS iN DEPRESSiON"..HAHA doing nothing but easting, eating, sleeping, moping&groping, eating..and did i say...EATiNG??? dayam...well, todae is supposed to be our ANNUAL D-UP with the homegirls...but damn...shhhhiiitttt...im sorry...its trippen me out but i knoe its all my fault so what else can i do right?? foreal...its wierd...its been a week and some daes since she stopped talken to me...damn, i dunno...i dont wanna go to skool..its gonna be wierd...faaawwwkkk...i dont knoe...im sorry...............................................[reminising]

2002-12-31T10:24:00.000-08:00

[.HAPPY fucken NEW YEARS.woOop di fucken do.CRAP]
blah blah blah..this new years sucked..i cant believe it...did nothing todae...not really...chilled with kaybee for a while...then stayed home...chilled for a lil while..then belle called me and she was at go ban..went over there..chilled...talked some shit out...then we saw jeff, jackz, and pat drive by cuz i was supposed to go watch a movie with them...then we went...dropped belle at piara's and picked up steven...watched "ghost ship" it was aight..kinda scary at some parts but it ended up being whack...so yeahh...then i went home...had the boringest countdown ever...talked to kaybee and then bris...then jeff, jackz, and pat came by to say HAPPY NEW YEARS...chilled for a while..then joe, ace, godfrey, gemma, and cyril came by wit belle..and some drinks...had some at my house...then jeff and them had to go...we dropped belle to her party..then i walked with joe and them to gemma's house..and jes chilled there for the longest time mopin and gropin...blah blah...dont worry about me please..i wont let you down..i can tell you that you can trust me..but thats all up to you...damn depression and shit..started the year with a big ass grudge with my cousin...im sorry...foreal...faaaaawwwkkkk..i dont even know anymore...im sorry...onthe realz..now im home...327 am...bored as fuck and i cant sleep for shit...foreal...havent been sleepin this whole break...insomnia and shit...damn..........

2002-12-28T22:47:00.000-08:00

[.not haven the TiME of MY LiFE either..BORED..soOo bored..goin CRAZY!! blahhhh.]
the past..wha? like 3 daes have been soOo crap...damn..foreal...im dyin of boredom!! cleaned my room soOo many times...all i do is sit in my room, watch tv, listen to music, go online, and my worst enemy........EAT...faawwwkkk..im trying to avoid that but i cant cuz i have nothing else to do....and i get hungry..damn...foreal...i dunno...you can say that this is prolly the worst winter break ive had..on the realz.........BLAAAAAAHH

2002-12-25T06:20:00.000-08:00

[.LooooooooooNGEST DAE.] *downtoride till tha very end...its ME and my BOYFREN*
alot happened todae..well..either that or we jes did alot of things with soOo mcuh time...i got a phone call from jen and we talked for a while..got some things str8 and all...stories..then i got ready and me and pie met up with our rents at our ANNUAL christismasparty at asagao...every year kinda thing...ate..chilled for a while..[i had to dress up..blah blah] then jackz picked us up and we chilled for a while and decided to go offbase..we went to seven-eleven and ate ice cream..on our way back to base...guess who we see?? our ikego buddies about to turn for the gate..then we went to jackz house..chilled for a while...went to the movies and watched DiE ANOTHER DAY..it was aight...kinda boring...then kaybee came...belle couldnt come cuz she was busy..after the movie..we went offbase..mores...took some pics...beef bowl...and back on base...then errone went home...tha end! haha.....todae was a loooong dae..last christismas with most of my frens...daaaaanngg...thanks guys! well, now its.............THE END

2002-12-24T09:02:00.000-08:00

[.MERRY CHRiSTiSMAS!!!!!.]
hmMm..well, its 151 in the morning..DECEMBER 25th OF COURSE! haha..let me tell you about my dae...les see...i went on my lil offbase adventure blah blah...chilled for a lil while..finished most of my presents and all then i went to pie's house and chilled thea for a while...[igot$20]muahah...HiiiiiGH RoLLLLLaaaa!!!! anyway..then mabelle ended up thea.cuz she was at a party at go ban which is near MY hooooooooooouse! she went with me back home so that i can change..then we went back to pie's and jeff.francis.leonard.&pat ended up over thea too...then they left cuz me and pie had to stay with our families and eat right quick..then we met up with them at the party..but only belle was thea and ace and cyril..we all jes chilled for the looongest time cuz joe and doug left ace and cyril by themselves..muahaha..then i went to church...and the funniest shit happened! its hard to explain..but funnie as hell!!!! first..this old guy behind us was fallen asleep..and all-of-a-sudden...from the corner of my eye i see his head fall forward and you hear this LOUD ASS snore...in a quiet ass church..hahah..then while we were praying her busts out singing silent night..with a deep ass voice..with soOo much passion and feeling..haha..and wen mass was almost over...the guy sittin next to pie sneezed really loud and pie got scared and fucken like twitched and jumped up..hahahaaaa....then after church me and pie went by ervin's house..to say merry christismas..then i got $50 from my ninong..ervin's dad....im rich!! well, then i went home..NOW i AM soOoOo BORED! okae..................................thas it

2002-12-23T07:54:00.000-08:00

[.HAPPY BiRTHDAE KAY KAY & DoUG!!!!.LoOoOoNG daes..]
hmMm..nothing much really happened todae...thoughts thoughts thoughts...emptiness...blah blah blah...finished most of my shopping?! went off base right quick for kay kay's bdae..ate beef bowl and took maddd pics...then wen we got back on base..we went to ikego..for doug's BBQ...it was koo...some funnie shit happened...and i few sick ass shit...eating dog bones?! licking the floor?? gross...then me and pie got stranded at ikego until 1045?? at kaybee's house...haha...we also chilled at belle's for a while...it was koo...well, everything else is all the same as it usually is.... =(

2002-12-22T06:24:00.000-08:00

[.CHRiSTMAS SHOPPiN=STRESS!!..»BRoWN SuGAR«.]
mann, about 2 more daes till christismas and i aint even finish shoppin! on the realz...FAWK! im mad!!! well, my computer works now..and so does my internet!! YESS...nothing really happenin this weekend...im happy that thea is no skool!! FUCKEN HAPPY..but at the same time i feel like im missing something [hmMm?!] ... the daes seem soOo long now...and i feel like time jes passes me by slower and slower each dae....i dont like it...usually i feel like i have so much to do and such little time..but usually make time for something...but now i feel like thea aint no need for that?! mannnnnn.....its wierd...like at nite..wen im chillen with my frens..usually id feel like i have more to do so i have to make time for it..but now i feel like.....BLAH.....i dunno..its hard to explain..whateva...imissu...i watched brown sugar todae..its a nice movie..reminds me of..........ME! haha...kinda..the whole scenario kinda thing..i duno..im hungry...and my stomach hurts..i think because i drank madd soda and no food?! well, we bout to go chill in ikego tomorrow cuz of DOUG'S BiRTHDAE!! wooooww....18!! gaaaaa headd!! i feel wierd.................................................something missin

2002-12-18T01:53:00.000-08:00

[.GAAAA DAYAM!! i havent been online in FOREVER....]
hmMm..nothing much has been happenin..other than tha fact that my computer is fucken up on me and i havent been online and about 2 1/2 weeks?! foreal...things been str8 L8Ly..nothing much happenin...well, from the last time i blogged..madd shit changed but other than that...its alll str8...im finally online and decided to drop a few lines...skool is almost over!!!! i needa get my computer fixed so that winter break wont be soOo boring..if i decide to stay home for some daes...but whats tha use if i cant go online???? duh?! bris left for kali. todae!! have fun buddie! ima miss yah! other than that..i got limited time hea so yeah..ima blog agen wen i get tha chance to use a computer.......

2002-11-29T20:20:00.000-08:00

[ .KAYBEE's DEBU...the 30th..todae's supposed to be our lucky dae member??
our horoscopes?.wha was supposed to happen?? ]

todae is kaybee's debu..the dae we've all been working for...not working hard...jes working for...a few weeks ago..me and bris were looking at our horoscopes..and it sed that the 30th was both our lucky daes..and we were wondering wha was gonna happen on this dae?! i dunno anymore?! i called a while ago...................not soOo good...:S..how long is this gonna be??? please....make an exception...a 2nd chance...it aint easy but itll be a lot easier for me and you to be back to the way we were....iknoe its hard now...but we can make it through..iknoe we can..and so does everyone else...please...if you dont base us like your past..then give us another chance?? it soOo different...waiting for your call...visits...how it used to be...i dunno if you feel how i feel but i need it back to how it was...i cant lose you...ever...it jes doesnt feel right without you in my life...okae...well, ima continue all this later...

okae..well, the debu was koo..i guess..kinda KJ for me..mann...i could've sworn i cried soOo many times...got caught staring and shit...hmMm...its really wierd...i kept going outside..and then this one time i walked out and bitch-gurl was all up in that shit?! i was like.....wtf? but yeah...and then near the end...bris called my cell...him and his frens went clubben..after visitors left....we jes chilled..danced..haha..it was fun...then i went home..changed..and went with errone to ikego...sleepover at kaybee's!! it was soOo fun...me.kaybee.ronks.pat.francis.leonard.scuba&martin...me and pat had a deep ass convo...fixed up some unfinished business...got alot of things str8...talked bout things before...its koo to have you back pat!! i missed yah mann...thanks alot!!! you knoe you always got me to turn to aight???? i dont think me and him would be close agen if i dint bring some bonus shit up..but yeah...its koo..and then we jes all chilled....talked about soOo much stuff...mostly our sex lives and shit..haha...scuba and his fucken.."PRARiE DOGGiN" hahaha...HiLERiOUS...and then around 5-6? int he morning..errone already fell asleep..i was still awake.......got no sleep at all...bags under my eyes and shit...bris came over...chilled...talk some shit out....got some rest...he was hella tired...and jes chilled till then...thas about it....most of the dae [sundae] we ate and slept...kinda..er jes lied there...juuu knoe...haha..thas about it.....

2002-11-29T07:51:00.000-08:00

[.×SoNG oF THE DaE×.]

.·.·.·.·*MiSS YoU*· .·.·.·.

It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

I miss you

Off to college, yes, you went away
Straight from high school you up and left me
We were close friends, also lovers
Did everything for one another

Now you’re gone and I’m lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow

Come back to me (To me)
Can you feel me (Callin’)
Hear me callin’ for you (For you)
‘Cause it’s

It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
So what am I gonna do, said I’ve been needin’ you,
wantin’ you
Wonderin’ if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine, I wanna cry sometimes

Now I’m sittin’ here thinkin’ ‘bout you
And the days we used to share
It’s drivin’ me crazy, I don’t know what to do
I’m just wonderin’ if you still care

And I wanna let you know that it’s killin’ me
I know you got another life, you gotta concentrate,
baby
[.imissu.]

2002-11-29T07:43:00.000-08:00

[ .MiSERABLE.what can i do?? its my fault..mopin&gropin.imissu.soOodifferent.wecangetthroughthis..?!. ]

mann...todae..was blah blah!!! woke up at like 33o?? went to pies..chilled there so that i dont go "crazy crazy crazy just thinkin about you lately" in my room...tried to pretend it wasnt bothering me...[.it may look like im happy but people who knoe me would knoe that im not doing so well.]thanks alot pie..for listenin to me...and then me and pie decided to walk...walk walk walk..omg..we walked far...from her house...to around the old towers....to the ex-change...and around there...weeeeiirrrddd...and then we walked back home.....got the van!!! oh yeah! picked jackz up and went back to the ex-change to check out hairstyles for the debu...mann...some nice laughs...went to my house and then to jacks house...[waiting....and waiting....and waiting.....huh jackz??]she tried this thing on my hair....then kat came...we all jes chilled there....had a talk with jackz..[thanks soOo much dude...i knew you would understand...×cantcontrol?×]went home at like 123o...thas it.........................................................other things..i cant explain.....imissyou...foreal..toOo much..im going crazy?!................................we can get through this...i knoe it......wheneva you ready to talk to me.....ima be here waiting for you.....................................okae??? take as much time as you need............i gotta deal with it....

2002-11-27T22:02:00.000-08:00

[ .HAPPY TURKEY DAE!!. ]

×.thinkin about you. a l l c r i e d o u t .
cantloseyou.imissu.......soOomuch.nothinwillcomebetweenus[all].icant believeall this BULLSHiT.blah blah......(*lahyOo*).×

spending thanksgiving at pie's house!!!!! yay!!! pigggg outt!! all you can eat..i dunno if ima eat though...toOo much to think about...its killer mann...i hate this right now...i dunno wha other peeps are prolly thinkin bout me right now?! whateva...its all BULLSHiT!! grrrr......BrB...i watched harry potter 2...for freeeee...but id int pay attention...toOo busy trippen out and shit....[thanks pat....for everything]

todae was SHiT!!!! i hate this dae..happy fucken thanksgiving my asssss! shiiiitt...now i cant sleep...alll dae and alllll nite.........been on my mind.....jes got done talken to bris outside in the soOoper cold..but it dint matter.....we had to talk.................................member eveything i told you bris...i meant it all................................................

2002-11-27T04:48:00.000-08:00

[ .drama.missedyOoguys.yalldontknoehowmuchyallmeantoUS.
whattanite.(icantloseyou.......ever). ]

dayam..last dae of skool for a looong while...been stressin..i hate todae!!!!! BIIIIAAAA!!! why yall frontin? foreal...last debu practice...i hope we ready..dont wanna make auntie and uncle look crazy if we fuck up so yeah?! shit killed my dae mann..i cant believe this BULLSHiT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrr....practice and after practice...GAAAAAA DAYAM! let it allll out.....NOTHiNG....foreal....take all the time you need...whateva you wanna do...i missed you guys..foreal...thank god we got all this shit str8...foreal...no more hatin??? i even got shit str8 from the summer.....[props.] thas unfinished business..foreal..i still gotta get that shit str8 but i aint trippen about it as much..MOSTLY..............i really cant lose you!!!!! foreal.....aaaaaaaahhhhhh!!! thanks karen and jed!!!! errone else...please??!?!?!? we can do this right??? well, thas about it.....jes thinking.........................................................................................

2002-11-23T08:44:00.000-08:00

[ .HaPPY BiRTHDaE KAYBEE!!! »18« haha..01211715-119!!!!!. ]
dzzzannngggg kaybee...18 already?! ga head ghurr...you old as fuck now!! sucka! todae was koo...fawken got in a big ass fight with me tonight..supposed to go to -PuRE!!- dduuhh?! but yeah...biaaa! well, we had practice at 1? sanban tower..i walked over there and it was fucken cold tooo...on the realz..and then after practice..we chilled with the guys..after the longest time...[imissedyouguys!] mann, us girls were talken about reliving LAST YEAR»» on the SAME DAE?! you can say.....HiGHLiTE!!! foreal..a lotta shit happened that dae!!!!!!!! [torn between two?? muahah].blah blah..and then we went offbase and chilled...then we had to go onbase cuz kaybee membered that she had to go to church and we were there like 3o minutes late..but yeah..she still went right?? haha..and then...we went to mongo..mann it was crowded! [not really] muahaha..it was fun though..other than the fact that they kept putting shit in your food..haha..and then...after mongo..we jes chilled...went by the party at ajisai..whoooooooooooooa now...got some..012117155...yay!!!! went to -41- and then..park by the two towers..and the ex-change parking lot................................BLAH BLAH..............whateva.....went home...talk with kaybee...chilled...thas it...

[.happy birthdae kaybee...and many more to come..hope yer dae went good!! haha..and all er maybe, most of them come true..thanks for errthang!! lah yah ghuurr...L8erz.]

2002-11-19T02:59:00.000-08:00

[ .WTF is going ooooonn???????? OMG!? im stressin over it! =jesfrens!?=. ]
2nd CRAP DAE this weekk....dammmmiit!! wtf is going onn?? on the realz mann...shhiiittt...["put a smile on your faaace"--gangsta] thanks mann...but yeah..scuba..agen..thanks for hearin me out...i dunno..anyway..maybe [you] dont want to realize the fact that i cant lose a frenship over lil shit like that..its all on you..its your choice to let shit like that ruin our frenship..you cant say that i did that cuz we errthang that happened...[then].i still managed and tried no matter how much it hurt....you jes dont knoe that...your jes dont knoe........[period].im not sayin im hatin..it aint right...tryna get shit str8?? hell yeah.....blah blah blah...ffffaaaaaaawwwwkkk...jes think about it..and shit that you do?! every lil thing...every dae...i knoe....feelings??? I KNOE you do.....cant hide them and cant resist them...you cant control them...jes come out with them...lil flings?? yeah...enough to ruin a frenship?? FUCK NO.

2002-11-15T06:14:00.000-08:00

[ .thoughts.thanksforthetalkSCUBA!. ]
whooooo...todae was aight...chilled around..mostly..watched santa clause 2 with kaybee..gangsta..and bris...pie.dion.tris&scuba were a few rows up...mann...it was crooooowwded!! on the realz...after..i had the biggest looooongest deeeepest talk with scuba..thanks mann..its been awhile since i let that shit out,,,

2002-11-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

[ .HaPPY BiRTHDaE LEoNaRD!!!!!!-->yer 19!. ]
oh mannn..this morning...had a fight with my rents...whooooo...chilled at home for a while...bris brought me some food..pie visited me..got ready..then me and pie decided to go out and chilll..went to sakura and planned to go to martin's house cuz errone was there..and since its leonards birthdae...we decided to go pay him a lil visit...once we got to their floor..they were waiting for the elevator so yeah...we decided to jes roll with them..chilled...watched a movie at 6..[stealing harvard] it was funnie..haha..after..we ate at bamiyan..mMmMmMm it was gooOoOOoOoD! [reunited] aaaahhhh.....ssiighh** i missed you leonard!!!! after that..we jes chilled wen we got back on base...went home at 1o?! blah blah...been haven some thoughts..i dunno..like some bad ones..but mostly good ones...some unexplainable feelings..and emotions runnin high...temptations killin me...faaaaaawwwwkkkk...i dunno............................imissu

..happy birthdae leonard!! and many more to come..i knoe its been awhile..but im happy that things are back to tha way they are agen...i missed you mann...i hope you had a fun dae and may all or atleast most of your wishes come true...take care..g'luck in errthang..lah yah mann!!!..

2002-11-08T07:24:00.000-08:00

[ .half dae!.JFL CAMPiONSHiP GaME. ]
todae was a half dae!! and at the same time we had a short ass 4th period cuz we had a ceremony for the veterans..and then it started to rain?! nOoOo...chilled around..wen the sun came out..me.pie&kaybee washed cars...kept running arrands...haha some fun times though...bris&lito came over...watched tv and ate more food..."we got the munchies!!!!" haha...drove around...went by the JV game...blah...went offbase and got some beef bowl...saw kaybee there...went back onbase and went to the game...blllahhhh...watched a movie..swimfan! omg!! HR! HR!.. she was a bia...i dont like her..[...thoughts...]..=(..noOoOo...how's it gon be after graduation??? aHHHhHhHH...ME IN JAPAN..YOOUU [guys] in CALI?? errrone gon be thea! noOo..jes chilled around...-SST-aaaahhh..blah blah...thas about it...

2002-11-07T03:22:00.000-08:00

[ .TiREDasFUCK.PRACTiCE.THoUGHTS.wtf??. ]
hmMm..todae...les seee...nothing much happenin...chilled around after skool..mann..i was forreal..FUCKeN HUNGRY!!!!!!! bout to eat anything i see...on the realz..i ate alot though..i CRaVE!! chilled around in jae's room..went to practice at the O'CLUB..we got our shit str8..we gon do this!! we got it down..haha..soOoper LONER!! haha..my fartner is siiickk..aww..[get well soOon??] after practice..jes went home and chilled...think think think...on the realz...have you ever felt like you had such a connection with someone that wen there is something wrong with them or feel like there is something wrong with them..it kinda effects you tooo?? and you dont want them feelin like that but in a way you dont knoe wha is botherin them...but it is still botherin you that they are like that??? yeeeeeeaaaahhhh....thas about it.....i dunno....BLLLLAAAAHHHH....

2002-11-04T23:34:00.000-08:00

[ .MiSCoNCEPTiONS.bondingTALK.yaLL4273me. ]
hmMm..nothing really interesting happenin' lately..todae me and belle ditched 6th..last minute kinda thing...we soOo dint wanna go to class...so yeah..jes chilled..bonded..thanks for the talk gghhuurr...but i jes hope that the reason is because of you yanno???? i dont wanna be looked at as THAT much of a bitch...cuz i wouldnt do that..but yeah...they dont knoe how much i miss them..and feel about how they feel toward me so yeah...i dunno...it was koo though..me and belle havent talked like that in a while so yeah...i dunno...all i can say now is..."FUCK iT!" yanno belle?? i mean, ju knoe wha im talken about so yeah.........whateva mann......they dont know...anyway, after skool..me and pie jes chilled....reminised on some old times...watched tv and ate alot of food.....mmmmm...and now i am online cuz i am bored and tired of doing my geometry homework..ima write agen L8erz

2002-11-01T06:13:00.000-08:00

[ .HOMECOMiNG GAME»VS=MiSAWA.GOoO DEViLS!!. ]
woke up this morning..at like 113o?? fixed up and eerrthang..bris came over to help me since he was getting bored and tired working on the stuff for their float..and then we went to the ex-change..got some money from my mom and went to the commissary to buy the soda for the dance...went to skool and helped out with the float...mann..its was hella cold and raining!!!!! met some misawa dudes...hmMm..hhahaha..NAAAAAAWWWW...after...worked on the float untill like 515?? walked home and got chased down by bris..he had to go home and dress up because he was escorting sarah tully...mann...he was a pretty boy...but wasnt his style...after i helped him..i went home and chagned...walked to the gym and saw jeff and francis..so they gave me a ride...watched the game...after meeting up with belle and kaybee..that was an exciting game..on the realz..and WE WOOOOONNN!!! 41-0???? YAAAYY!!! hahha..."the boob touching game!!??" boooo...you guys are mean!! haha...went to the courtyard after the game to help take down the floats...wanted to go the mcdonalds but it was closed...had a talk with kay...haha....props!! and then i walked home...thas about it for now...

2002-11-01T06:00:00.000-08:00

[ .thurdae:october 31»»HAPPY HALLoWEEN!!. ]
todae..we have a pep really cuz HOMECOMING is tomorrow!! woOoOohHhoOoOo!!! well, after the pep rally...chilled and helped seniors with their carnival game..thingy..BLEW alot of balloons...wooooo....it was tiring...the carnival was aight.."i dont like it!! haha..i dont like heerr..muahaha.."after...we went trick or treating!! yay! and there was this lil girl dressed up as a homeless or like...quasimodo!!!! ooohhh my fuuuckeeenn goooooshhh!! she scared the shit outta me..and then wen i started screaming..she was chasing me..and she touched me with her sticckk!!! ahhhhhhhhhh...and then..we watched the ring! yup!! third time and it was STiLL scary!!! foreal..thas about it...

2002-10-28T01:56:00.000-08:00

[ .its working!!! updates on::1o-23-o2--1o-28-o2. ]

[1o-23-o2] [11 daes]
no more BLING BLING!! Muahah I got my braces off todae…dzZzZaaaaanng…ate lunch with dion.jae.belle&pie…after skool, me and belle had an appointment for dental so after droppin mae and crystal kay to whea they gotta go..wen went to dental and waited foreveeeeeerrrr for belle…ahhhhh she took forever..and then we went back to the courtyard to watch the unitformation…but we dint really pay attention to it…decided to help with the homecoming banners and I got to paaiinntt!! Yay!! Mann, and then kaybee was onbase…so she chilled with us in the art room…haha…”don’t say that forbidden four letter avid word!!!!! Booooorrrrrkkk….” Muahaha!! That was funnnie…after that, we dropped kat home and went to my house…theres a fricken house party next door…bbq and errthang..then wen we were about to go to the ex-change to buy a cover for pie’s camera and jae drives up my court…then he came with us…we chilled at the ex-change for a while..and then went to the liberry…we had to give mae her books there tooo…and then, we went back to my house and jae left with martin and pie decided to go home…im stressing over my anatomy shit doooodeee…faaaawwwkk…and then bris came over and we jes chilled for a while..and for some reason I jes wanted to walk agen…so we walked…talked…bonded…looked at the BLACK sky with NO moon…it was funnie..and there were these two people who followed us the whole time..they looked like us…hahah our SHADOWS!!!! Those were some funnie times…I had funn though…other than the fact that it was fawken cold and my fingers were purple and about to fall off…and then by the seawall…muahaha it was funn!! Well, I jes got done doing my shit so yeah…thas about it…

during the weekend::
1o-28-o2:
listen to this doooppe convo.::
"i hit my finger when i was running up to my room to answer my phone..and it hurts...""....now im looking through all my old english analysis papers so i can give it to kaybee because she texted me..thats wen i hit my finger against the wall while i was running to answer my phone which was a text from kaybee to call her wen i find my papers...you get???? "
hahah funnie huh?? confusing? slow peeps? BRB
hmMm..thursdae was a half dae..we chilled offbase and then on base..worked at skool and watched serving sara..it was aight?! i guess...on fridae..NO SKOOL!! but i had a fricken appointment at 83o in the morning so i couldnt sleep in.. went over there..chilled for a while...went up to sullvs...chilled at bris' and then hmMm..i fergot wha else happened that dae...watched another movie..oh yeah..BLUE CRUSH! it was dooooppe..on saturdae...i slept in..mae woke me up..i think?! watched THE RING!!!!!! ahhhhh...skurriest movie ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! foreal...on sundae...supposed to have debu practice but we cancelled it and watched the ring agen..........and thas about it..for the weekend.....

2002-10-22T03:10:00.000-07:00

[ .waitingforyou.lookingforyou.ihopenothingisgoinwrong?!. ]
blah blah blah...same 'ol dae! i hate B-DAES!!! they kill might week er maybe my dae..but still! i hate them..i always seem depressed er whateva on these daes..on the realz..i dunno why?! but yeah..and then....after skool..chilled at skool and worked on some of the homecomin shit..hah IM DEDiCATED! yeeeesss...shhyeah rite! went to the ex-change&commissary with crystal kay..haha..it was funnie!!! [whiskaaaass right?? muahah..] went back and did our geometry projects with sugar cubes..mann..that shit takes forver to stick! foreal..but we did it! went by tha V-BALL game then walked home..its gettin cold now..im happy!!! =)..been waiting&waiting&waiting...im not tryin to assume nothing and i hope nothing goes wrong?! aaaaaaahhhhhh.....now im bored.......brb

okae..back [1o:14PM] muahah..i did the most remarkablest thing!!!! at around 8 sumthing...i was going crazy in my room and i kept thinking&thinking&thinking and jes decided to get out of the house and walk...walk walk walk...and i dint come home until now...wiiiieeeerrrddd huh?? i went up to the top floor of sullvs. and jes sat there in the cold..looking at the full moon and the lights and the lil stars...wwwwoooowwww..it was koo..i jes walked...everywhere...took the long ways...maybe its becauseeee..................... sighh** see wha you are doin to me??? i love it though! anyway, i have to finish my homework now...imissu

2002-10-21T04:32:00.000-07:00

[ .whatevasbotheringYOUisbotheringME.hopeyouaight?!. ]
mann, another rainy daeeee..thea can be koo but todae was BLAH..we dint have a car either so yeah?! well, me&pie went to the ex-change..OMG!! theres this really cuuuuute pooh bear over there!! ahh...he vibrates too!! haha..and dora the explorer..she does the harlem shake!! gaaaaa headd..haha..its koo..i got the new cosmopolitan!? yay!! then we saw tris&scuba and asked for a ride..chilled with them for a while at sullvs. with jae.dion&jeff..then we decided to go home..chilled at home for the longest...bris came over..he all called me and asked if it was koo if he can come over and i sed yeah..its koo..i went down stairs and he was already here after like 15 minutes??? and no one told me..haha..it was wierd..and then we had to go to the commissary rite quick to buy some trash bags..mann, my rents loooooove him...fucken telling him to use the car..but yeah..thas koo though..then he went to troffler's house so yeah..i wrote out some pics. to peeps and chilled in my rooooomm..thinkin and thinking and thinkin..there is something bothering me soOo bad..and its wierd...todae......NOOO....??????? mannnnn...im trying here...cooperate with me?? its hard..i knnnnoooeee..icanfeelitTOOOO.."puh-puh-puh-pllleeeeease dont do this to me"..hehe..no but foreal..im serious...i kkkkaaaarrrreee so yeah...dont wanna get all up in the business but if you wanna talk....tell me yeeeeaah??? oookkaaaaeeee...fiiineee...i guess this is it???? .imissu.
canNEVERgiveuponYOU..member that..

"i wanna feel the way you make me feel wen im with you; addicted to you; cant pretend that im alright"

2002-10-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

[ .debupractice.itsgettingCOLD!!. ]
this morning..at like 12? 1? me&bris jes chilled outside of my house and talked...bonded..muaha.."the smell of beer&stogs...aahhhhh..sigh**.." haha..whatta retard!! the question of the week..ask this to someone::"when is enough..ENOUGH??" can you ever give up on a person??? or to wha extent will you FiNALLY decide to GiVE UP ON THEM?? thas a mind-opener huh?? haha..yeah i knoe..it got me thinkin..and then me&pie actually walked to church todae....ammmaaaaazzzzzing!! haha and it was fricken cold too?! mann..our dope ass BAND performance in the parking lot?? haha..we ROOOCCCKK!! after church we went to my house with kaybee and ate..played cards! holy nutballs!! pie's first time playing pusoy dos..and she sucked ass...and then the second game..she won?? hahah..and we all thought she was slow???? hmMm..anyway, thas when jae.jeff&dion came over..fixed their cars and ate...then some other peeps came over...we had debu practice at 4 at asagao..finally tryin to get it all together cuz we aint got much time..walked home with bris after we went to get his clothes from like 5 months ago..at kat's house and then we walked home..haha..the funniest shit happened..he wore pants over his shorts cuz it was cold and then his phone started ringing which are in his shorts pocket and he had to go into his pants and into his shorts to answer it..it was funnie..maybee its a "have to be there and see it" kinda thing?? but yeah..and then wen i got home i decided to go and do my pics...but i dont have construction paper..so bris came over and we went to the ex-change and saw my rents there...drove around..went to the mini mart at the navy lodge..and he got this one book..OMG!! it was talken about how to understand chicks and wha they are really thinkin er some shit like that but yeah..and then we read it while driving around..went back to the ex-change...he bought a guitar magazine and a whole pack of..........KiTKaT!!! yay! fawk..i think ima be gettin my rag soon tooo..shhhiiitttt...talk about almost one month sex drive..this stoopid shit jes made it longer!!! ahhhh..oh well..i can wait...and now i am at home..thinkin about whether i needa do my laundry and the fact that i need construction paper! stoopid ex-change runnin outta stock! geeezzz...well, thas about it..ohhh..and for pat..dont be mad doode...i sent you a text..i sent errone one...i mean, wha would make you think id forget about you?? foreal..haha..dont be mad though aight????..mmmkae then..thas about it..

2002-10-19T05:58:00.000-07:00

[ .killinMEjesasmuchasitskillinYOU.. ]
mann, last nite..had some of my boyfren--JOSE!! haha...and i few puckers...yay!! this morning..i woke up.."and wen i wake up..your the first thing on my mind...." i love that song..sorry..off subject?! okae..back to wha i was kinda talken about...woke up and i think we were supposed to go to ikego todae but i woke up late so yeah..we kinda dint anymore...i was stuck in my room wondering and stressin bout wha the F-word i was gon wear?! grrr...it made me madddddd..and then i went to pies...chilled..watched tv..fell asleep...went out..commissary..sullvs. and bothered bris from the top of sullvs. to his window!! haha...and then he went there and mae was there...and we all chilled for awhile...we went to church to see belle&kaybee...went to go meet them at mongo...jae=FLuFFY!!! hahah..im jes messin!!mann..thanks guys!! for that BiG SURPRiSE!!! muahah..i lab it! i lab it all! kaykay...you retard!!! "shes toit..toit like a toiga!" muahaha...after that we jes chilled..went to the court to drop off some food to bris...stayed there for a while..then decided to go..walked from pie's house..needed some "time" to myself..haha..OH YESS!! "hopin to find someone magically appearing..maybe my prince charming waiting for THAT one special kiss..." haha..OH SHHHHNNAAPP!! i admit..that sounds hella gay huh??? well, yeah..now im at home..chillen with nothing to do?! listen..::
"i want you to know that..i MiSS YOU..i MiSS YOU SoOoO.."
yes i do...aaaahhhh...you drive me crazy!!!!!! BRiS:: i know you know wha i am talken about!! wha the frick am i supposed to do?? i mean, you should knoe how much i feel for [him]..i tell you ALL THE TIME..kinda..haha..but wha do i do?? seriously..."jes go for it dude..goo for it dude!" haha...i want [him] to knoe that wen im not with [him]..im thinkin bout [him]...thoughts.always on my mind.yOodontknoewhayOomeantoME!!! aaaaahhhh...you're driving me crraazzzyyy!! blah blah...thas about it...had a lil deep convo. with JR outside of my house...got alot of shit str8..he pretty koo though..so yeah..other than that..all i gotta say is -BABE..i miss you-..everything else...issss HiSTORY!!! haha..thas funnie..okae..its gay! whateva..im out!

2002-10-17T06:58:00.000-07:00

[ .finaLLy-->sexteeeeenn!!! *yay*.depression. ]
mann, todae was wiiieerrddd..."happy birthdae to meeeeee!!" muahaha! well, first of all..:: thanks bris for your lil message...muahah..i get itttt!! haha..fawk mann!!! todae i had this BULLSHIT field trip to the hospital..which i soOo
D I D . N O T . W A N N A . G O . T O ! ! ! GRRR...but it was aight..some funnie shit happened at times..but other than that...it sucked balls!!! for once in my life i actually wanted to be in skool!! muahaha...after skool, i saw my frens...OH! wait..in the morning...jae gave me a monkey..muahah...cute!! okae..now..after skool...wen i saw my frens...we chilled for a while..went to the liberry..me&kaybee went to the navy lodge and chilled at jae's room..and then we went back to the liberry...went home after droppin belle to the bus stop..i had to go back to skool cuz i needed my anatomy book..HOLY SHITTTTBALLLLS! it was skurry..i had to go into the building from the 3rd floor...go to the innner stair case..go to the first floor..and wen i got there it was DARK as fuck!! skurrrrryy..=S and then i got my book..im still alive! muahaha..went home...then to the ex-change cuz bris was waiting for a haircut and he got lonely so he called me and since i dint really see him the whole dae and i missed him..[haha..dont you wish that was true??? j/k] i walked there and met him half way which was at the sakura parking lot..chilled there...had a "serious" talk which i think we need..hmMm.."whateva you want..whateva makes YOU happy.." haha..and then i went home..think.think.think..depression.BLAH! on my way home i saw jae&martin chillen by the tower...jae dropped me hoome and me and him had a bonding talk on his car..i think i dented it!? and then there was this funnie thing..he thought he lost his kays..we looked everywhere for them..and he kept jumpin and jumpin to see if she could hear them..but there was nothing...his pockets were all empty and errthang..and then..he finds them..where??? going down the inside of his pantleg!! muahah..it was funnie!! and the..[fob]"hey! yor in trabol! i will tok to you in the nabee ladge! okae? haha" [talk to you at home! navy lodge! hahaha] ooookkkkaaee and then bris came over!! omg! he gave me a pooh bear!! muahah..dont be jealous!! its adorable!? yaya!! im special! and then we jes chilled...went to mcdonalds..and then chilled at my house for a while..and then he jes left..thas about it..whats going on with me??? why is it everytime i have something that i actually want...i CANT have it???? or i have something that i CAN have but in a way i CANT..or either way..it always gets fucked up!!! i hope whoeva comes next....IT BETTER NOT END UP LIKE HOW THE PASS FEW GUYS HAVE BEEN...we get close...we knoe how we feel..we cant have eachother..wen errthang is better than nothing with us...HE jes decides to give up and totally changes..I DONT WANT THAT RIGHT NOW!!! i like how things are..especially since they can be better than NOTHING AT ALL...that would be nice...for the next dude..well, "i also dont want [you] getting affected to the point where itll start to affect [us]"quote by: unknown..muahah...okae...well, thas pretty much it..we bout to celebrate tomorrow so yeah..woOoOoHoOo!! aight...thanks errone!!!

2002-10-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

roanne im at your house right now. celebrating your birthday with you. and your singing happy b day to yourself....sad. j/p hope you had a fun birthday and i still have another present for you. give it to you on saturday. i got to go home in FOURTY FIVE minutes and then watch MATRIX in my living room COUCH. someone FELL earlier today. funny. and i accidently BIT my LIP near the church. question: how many LICKS does it take to get to the center of a lolipop? got to go your mad now. bye.

2002-10-14T05:44:00.000-07:00

[ .yOomakeMEhappy......BoTH WaYS!! haha..seriously.faLLin??. ]
no skool..yesss!!! slept in until like 13o?! yeeessss...it was goOooOoD! went to the ex-change with pie and bought..-->4o DAES & 4o NiTES!!!!!<- woOOohHhoOOo!! hooootttttiiee!! watched it..chilled at my house for the longest..and thas about it..mann, i dont wanna go to skool..well, anyway, ive been havin some thoughts in my head..ALoT of them..and some of them dealing with the past..some with wha is goin on now..*FLASHBACKS??* ..tha park? FAAAALLLLIIIINNNGG!!!!! will you catch me?? shiiiiittt....i dunno...blog L8erz

2002-10-13T10:59:00.000-07:00

[ .HaPPY BiRTHDAE ROBiN!!.PURE*.hangovvveerr.sOopersOre. ]
whoooooo..mann, saturdae night was funnnnn!!! i was fucken scared though..but once i got there..i fergot about it..gemma.."i knoe wha you forgoooot!!! hahaha" inside joke..mann, but that was funn.."could i be fallen for youuuuu??"..club song.muahaha!!..now, i have the biggest hangover and im soOo fucken sore..on the realz.."getchyo freak ooonn!!"..hmMm..its 25o in the morning..and on sundae..i dint really so anything...after we got back onbase we chilled for a while and then went to bris' house and we all slept there...hahaha.."BiG PiMPiN!!" muahaha...and then we walked...YES!! sore as hell..tired as fuck!! sooper lazy..and we walked!!! OMG!! and kaybee..mann, she disappeared on me doode...wha tha? i woke up and she was gooooone! well, yeah..and then i went home...fell asleep some more...went out..watched a movie at my house..chilled..and then bris came over at like 123o?? cuz he was there earlier and had to be a taxi driver!! haha..jooooke! and he finally got some sleep..we were watchen some skating videos with my brother and we all knocked out!! then i woke up at like 245? and woke him up...then he left and now i am here...writing this down...mondae..NO SKOOL! yeeess!! more time to sleep..im soOo foreal..well, as for thoughts...and emotions..im toOo BLAH to write them down..fawk them!! it doesnt matter anyway..yanno?? yeeeeaaahh.."you cant blame me..it aint my fault..i aint doin it intentionally.."muahaha -emotions takin me over-

2002-10-10T06:16:00.000-07:00

[ .BLaNK. ]
mann, i think i bombed my fucken anatomy test!! faaaawwk...that shit was hard..i had to take it over after skool..and then after that i met up with pie&bris...they picked my up at MY CoRNER..muahaha...chilled for a while...found out that sodas are 25cents at the commissary..i never knew that!! haha..foreal..went back to skool to get something and ended up talken to ms. bork..and karen.."BiG SeX!!!" muahah..and then we chilled at kat's house..went home and watched friends, everybody loves raymond, and will&grace..hahah..went back out at 9 to see jackie off..and the rest of the v-ball crew..mann, jackz was bout to make me cry..i lah yah ghurrr...dont worry bout it aight?? then chilled for a while..dropped kat home and went to lito's court..chilled with bris&lito..then decided to go home..had a lil talk with bris..[sorry dude..i was bout to cry...dint mean to make you..] mann, i wish i met robin..i talked to him once online..thas it...but i guess thas better than nothin..and its wierd especially wen jackz tells me that he wanted to meet me..mann, i hella wish i met him...well, his birthdae is coming up...*yay*..he's happy and he is still with all of us.............

2002-10-09T04:23:00.000-07:00

[ .missyOoguys.soOo different.=keepitreaL=. ]
mann...nothing much happened todae...jes chilled in the truck on my car...muahahha...debu practice...thas about it...other than tha fact that hmMm...i dunnnnoo..i miss my frens...geeezzz..it feels wierd..they can say they arent mad but wha makes me knoe that they aint got even the lilest grudge??? i dunno...

BRB

2002-10-07T06:01:00.000-07:00

[ ..havent blogged in a while...finally got my internet workin agen!!! ]

// 1o.o5.o2 //
[.mann,imissthem.fullofemotions.]
dayam..todae was crap..foreal…I dunno whas goin on with me?? Well, maybe I might but I dunt wanna talk about it…song of the dae::

[untitled]
some people like shoes/of different kinds
some people like afternoons/or how the moon shines
and they have their own reasons
to the way they do
thas why I ask myself what is it with you

is there something wrong with the way I feel
do you even see me as I pass you on the streets
i close my eyes and let it be
cuz i just dont see
why you love to HATE me

and when i wake up your the first thing on my mind
come to think of it everytime im thinkin bout you
i take a cold shower or even two
just to clear these thoughts of you
[wait i fergot most of tha song...type it all in L8erz]--[ITS ALL COMING BACK TO ME =D]

Foreal dude..am I not a frenly person?? I mean, geeezzzz…I KnoE 4 of them who hate me er have something against me…I…..goooooooshhhh…I cant believe this though…I hella considered them as my frens and I knoe that they don’t like me…wen im loud they get mad…wen im quiet they ask whats wrong and say that im tryna pull drama..wha is that???? And that recent situation that jes happened..mann, YoU don’t KnoE THE FULL StoRY…at least hear us out…cuz you guys aren’t sloppy seconds if that’s wha youguys think…we always think of you guys!! ALWAYS…but it seems like we annoy you guys er you guys don’t like chillen with us so wen we have tha urge to call you guys up and ask “where you guys at?” I feel like you guys get annoyed…I dunno wha you guys are thinking?? I mean, I know you guys don’t like me…well, 4 of you guys..and I can feel it…but why?? Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh…………………I dunnnooo..i miss you guys though!! Seriously…im sorry for whateva got you guys to feel this way toward me…but yeah…thas how I feel…I always look for you guys…think about you guys…and all that other stuff but seems like yall don’t like it wen I call er whateva…I dunno…todae nothing really happened…after skool we got in trouble by po-po…it was bullshit…and then went to the ex-change…[we aint maken you guys choose…so yeah] this whole day I felt so out of place…like there was something really heavy on me and that I couldn’t get anywhere…that there was something missin…a BIG thing…it hurts though…I feel like soOo…mann, I cant even explain it…and then to continue…we were at the ex-change…and they [kaybee.belle.megs.&kay] were waiting for jeff&them…wen they got there they left…OMG!!! I could’ve sworn…all those tears that Ive been trying to keep in…came out..i got up and me and up jes decided to go home…and then at home…I balled some more…like ALOOOTT…they are seniors…their last year…I cant have this the whole year…they mean toOo much to me…I lah them mann…hmMm…I don’t even knoe anymore…its up to them…

hmMm...that was for umMm..doode, i dont even memberr no more..i think tha 5th?? yeaaahhh..well, other than that..shits been tha same...i guessssssss........BLANK

2002-10-02T06:01:00.000-07:00

[ .needa knoe that song!!!. ]
mann...listen to the words of this song??
i only got some of it down but yeah...look::

[untitled...for now.]
why cant we do the things lovers do?
and thats why its hard to be frens with you..
everytime your heart is broken by a fool
i want you to knoe that it hurts me too
its hard to wipe your tears away
knowin that you should be with me....tell meee....

why..why are we still frens
when everything says that we should be more than we are
and tell me...
why..everytime i find..someone that i like..
we always end up just being frens......

well anyway, that song is gonna remain untitled for now..but ill find it!! i will..i took that cd from bris..well, he gave it to me...hmMm..wha happened todae?? i had an appointment at 11 for my platinum grilll.shhhhyeah...mann, im gettin them off before november..so they say!! woOoOohHhOOoO!! yesss!! and then instead of going back to skool..me and my mom went off base and went shoppin..and then i met up with errone..at the foodcourt...we were fillin out these survey thingies...and we got 5$ rebates coupons things...and then me&bris&pie were left there cuz errone went to the gym..and since like someone doesnt really like us....we werent invited and dint go...me&bris walked piara home and then we went to bris' house and chilled thea..picked up mae and went to practice..practice wasnt really serious todae..although i was about to bust a tear wen we had to go around and hold peeps hands and wen i got to a certain person..i was about to bust out...and then after practice...we went to ikego to drop off belle.cat&pat..chilled at kaybee's for a while..tried on the dresses..and thas about it..got really emotional..i have all these emotions in me..foreal..and they are killer..they hurt soOo bad but i cant explain it at all..and thas wha trips me out cuz i want to explain it to someone..but i cant cuz i cant find the words to explain how i feel..er wha is goin on in my mind..i miss chillen with them already...oh! and i found out that jay..that one guy..he is my cuzzin...wieeerrdd..but yeah...i seriously dont knoe?!?! my gooshhh.thinkin//reminisin//cryin//emotions//feelings//forbidddden//hurtful//jealous/blllllaaahhh..oh.
BRIS:: here we go agen...mr."make me famous" muahah...thanks for droppin' by so i can talk to you about this shit..it really trips me out...im soOo lucky yo have a fren like you......i lah yoOo!!! thanks...for errthang...aight??? well, EVERYONE...if you need a fren who you knoe will always be there for you....call BRIS..241-2340!!! muahaha...he is open anytime...for ANYTHING...joke bris!!! lah yah!!! well, enough with all this boring..i cant explain how i feel...bullshit...im done.

2002-10-01T00:25:00.000-07:00

[ .RAAAAAAAIIINNNYY DAAAEE!!puddles!puddles!puddles!.
westillfrens??. ]
woOoOohHhOoOo!!!! mann, typhhooon..too bad..cuz i think we still gon have skool tomorrow anyway..dont that suck?! mann, me.pie&todd walked home in the rain..and jump in soOo manny puddles..it was funn!! foreal..im bout to go play in them agen...im jes waiting for someone to play with me so we can get weeeett!! muahaha..well..mann, been thinking about alot of stuff..ju knoe that feeling..that negative feeling when you think that someone..er some people jes dont like you?? mann..im sorry guys..i knoe i can get really annoying and all but i hella consider you guys as my clostest frens....i found something out and like..it kinda hurt...alot...but if thas how they feel..then i guesssss..i cant do nothing about it..but yeah...[to you guys:: thanksalotforeverything...imsorryforallthosetimesipissedyallofferwhateva..lahyall...likehell!] but yeah.....i jes think yall dont like me so yeah...hmMm...anyway...thas about it..before a bust a tear...dayam...that sucks...well, the typhoon is scarin the shit outta me...oh..and another shout out..to bris...agen......you gonna start paying me for helpin you get popular! muahaha..jookkee..well, thanks for errthang aight???? laaaahh yaaaaahhhhh!!!!! aight....and your.......GAY! muahah.im jokin....im out.....................

2002-09-29T04:51:00.000-07:00

[ .emotions.taken.me.over. ]
fridae..saturdae..and sundae..hmMm..whea to start?? on fridae..blah blah..nothing really happened...me&pie..outta the blue..jes decided to go offbase..eat beef bowl..pics. at mores..mann....looked around..prolly if we had money..go shoppin..but we was broke so yeah..its a rainy dae so whateva...and then on saturdae..mann...they are mad..jes chilled for a while..and then went to dions house..and then we lost them [dion.jeff&tris] after that..we went to my house and fell asleep..got mongo. to gooo..and were looking for them...sed they was at jeff's house so yeah..we asked them to jes meet us up at sullvs. me&pie were jes there..eating..and then like mae passed by..and she told us to go upstairs..and talk to them and then her and ivy left to get food so she asked us to keep bris and ray ray company..all of a sudden all of the crew comes..and then thas wen jeff& them come...i hope they dont think that we sold them out..foreal..and now..sundae...mann...ima kill kaybee.mae&bris..fucken all woke me up early and shit..bris callin my cell at 73o in the fricken morning...jes got back from clubben and all..and then kaybee pops up in my room..and tells me to wake up..im like.."wha tha? whea tha hell you come from???" muahah..but they had ccd so yeah..chilled at bris' for a while..and then walked home and the i drove him home..went to church...chilled...mae's beq room..mann...drove around..and then went to practice..niiiiice dresses...mann...practice was 4 hours long todae..mann..my feet fucken hurt..and then yeaaahh..had this bullshit lecture from my mom cuz my brother made it look like this whole shit was my fault..whateva mann......other than that...thas about it..maann.."emotions taken me over..""soOo many thoughts runnin' through my head.." [.oLd.DaEs.]..i dunno wha to do anymore...bris..thanks for everything mann..you're always there...its kooo how i can talk to you about errthang...ju knoe i got your back through anything aight?????? talk to me if you need anything...hahah TOOO LATE! already dooo..muahahha...mmkae..thea goes another gay thing..aight...well, thas about it...........

2002-09-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

[ .give me madd props. ]
Damn…havent blogged in a while…well, mann, give me maddd props!! On the realz..todae..whoooo..i was able to call up jen and talk shit str8 with her…dayam..i have guts..even though I knew that there would be a 5o-5o chance of her hangin up on me..i still went for it..cuz seriously…I can lose a frenship like that over something I KNOW I dint do and that jes sucks if it actually happened..but damn..i missed that ghur soOo much…on the other hand..my brother is pissen the fuckk outta me..im bout to snap on him!!!!! Grrr…like todae..kuya called me and he dint even answer the phone wen it was right beside him..so bris answered and then while I was talken to kuya…he dropped the phone on the floor and disconnected it…I was like..”WTF?!” now I think that kuya thinks I hung up on him wen I really dint…and then…skool…damn it!!! Mr. Stanley gave me a C+..wha is that?? And I have a C in english..but the rest are all As…but still…i cant deal with those grades..well, dayam..nothing really's been happenin' L8Ly...on wednesdae there was a unitformation...(8)"daddy wasnt thereeeeeee....." (8)........"to take me to the FAAAAARRREEEE" muahahah...and then...wha else?? nothin' much..kaybee got her teeth pulled out todae...drooool...joke kaybeee...i dunnooo...i think theres something wrong with me...NAAAAAHHH..i dont think so..im perfectly NORMAL...."it may look like im happy but people who knoe me would knoe that im not doing so well.."im very very emotional and horny...those two dont mix!!! hahah...anyway, thas about it..i still need to finish my anatomy homework..color and study...yeah yeah yeahhh..roanne?? do homework?? neeeeevveerrrr...hahha...YES WAYYYYY....mmkae...thas about it....

2002-09-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

[ .toOoemotional..whasgoinon??hurtin..killenmeinside.sexuallyprone. ]
omg..i have no idea wha is goin on..geezz on the realz..mann, chilled at the liberry todae..me.kaybee.pie&jeff..talken about graduation..old daes..memories..funnie crackheaded daes...all those times..reminiscin..thinkin about wha happened with errthang..how its gon be in the future..mannn..i was bout to bust a tear..i feel like they dont like me but at the same time i love all of them soOo much...for errthang they have all done for me and ahhhhhh..ima miss them all...kaybee's debu..prom..mann, foreal...[thanks you guys]yall jes dunno...well, i have no idea wha is goin on through my mind...i though lito was hella mad at me todae?! omg..he like stopped talk to me but yeah..im like hella emotional L8Ly...i get the throbbin chest pains..the butterflies in the stomach..and i start shakin..and i cry..tear..all that..at the same time..i have things runnin through my mind..yesterdae i had the guts to do something..and he called me a bitch!!! wtf??? i dint do shit..it may be fucken easy for him but after almost 4months..its still fucken killen me..he was like my best guy fren and he hates me for no FUCKEN reason..its pretty hard to except..i have another thing with someone who seems like they hate me and shit and i cant do anything about it but feel that NEGATIVE pressure between us..it hurts toOo..all the guys i get close to and start trustin==always" fu_cked up wen its all over" and it takes me forever to trust another guy..mann, thank gosh bris is here..i jes know this same thing wont happen between us because me and him are koOo like that..and i hope he doesnt do that..that shit would be killer..mann, whateva..."it may look like im happy but people who knoe me would knoe that im not doin soOo well..."(8)...........

2002-09-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

[ .(8)"do you remembaaaa...the 21st nite of septembaaa"(8). ]
hmMm..wha happened todae?? me&pie jes chilled until like 3?? waited for the car...went to tha game and wen we got there it finished...holy-fuckballs!!! 34-6!! grrrr...wha the hell is that shit??? on the realz...and then we went to bris' house and chilled there to watch the MTV music awards..he has cable..then we left and found our other frens..01211715 119.....weeerdd..but before that me&pie went to the ex-change to get money and then we met up with errone..they went to the auto port to fix up dion's car and me&pie went to seaside to get our mongo tooooooo gooooo...some funnie shit happened while waiting.."football with scuba!! muahah..and i got scuba in a headlock!!!" then after the ikego peeps went home around i think 83o cuz they had to be home around 9-93o..mann, some kuni peeps were bout to get their assssss beat!! and ooooohhhh.....1114173 93395!!! grrrr...at the ex-change parking lot..& some chick is gon get her ass beat too..by pie...fawker!! we knoe who you are biiiiaa!!!!after that we drove around..finding a spot..some oo7 shit..muahaha..that was funnie...on the realz..went to the parking lot by shobu and saw "the crew" and then...haha..lito was hangin on pie's windshield while she was driving and she accidently put up her window and had lito's fingers in here..awww..poooorr boyyy...and then there was something about the new middle skool construction place..now that was hella funnie.."move move move!!!!!!" hahah..and then we found our spot..our secret spot..then pie&martin went home..so me.jeff.scuba.tris&jesse were left..had our share...jesse&scuba went to go walk to the teen center..i have no idea why?! and then me.jeff&tris were left..had a lil talk with them and they left me by myself cuz i think jeff had to get something in pie's car..finished and dint even wait for jesse&scuba cuz they took toOo long and we though that they werent gon come back no more...i went home around 1115? maybee..."buuuuzzzziinnn..." and thas about it...prolly me&bris are gonna chill agen...and watch more movies..muahah..he has no frens&no life..joke!! and thoughts?! blah blah......sammmmeee.............

2002-09-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

[ .feelings.thoughts. ]
dint get to blog last nite so yeah..ima write bout wha happened yesterdae [o9-2o-o2]::
hmMm..at at the galley with errone.kat&barbara...shes koOo..shes soOo funnie..haha...shes a crack toO..after skool, we jes drove around for a while and then george was gettin i dunno..mad er something and told us to pick barbara up..so she chilled with us..mann, [jenisstillmad@me..missyahghur!] chilled at sullvs. for the longest because jeff had to go pick auntie up and then francis went home..all our other guy frens were at their tennis game against kuni...[ihope theywon!!] anyway, shes soOo koo..after that...belle&barbara went home on the activity bus..kaybee dint stay after cuz i think she wasnt feelin soOo good..me&pie went home and then i think tha guys went to eat off base so yeah..me&pie jes drove around..we were gonna watch a movie but naaww..we dint..chilled at gemma's court and saw the "crew" ove thea..chilled at gemma's house for like 1 hour er something..she koo too..i lah that ghur..i got shit on her and she got shit on me..=S.muahaha...so yeah...and then we went out and lito.ace.bris&joe were still thea so we chilled with them for a while......and then pie decided to go home..so she drove home and bris had to drop joe home and met me at my court..i drove home!! muahah..yay! and then me&bris jes chilled at my house till fricken like..33o in the morning?! er maybe 4..watched like 3 movies..13 ghost was skurry as fuuuuuckkk..."45 minutes.." haha..new song!! "STROKE it now..STROKE it good..STROKE my dick jes like you should.." hahaha...ffoooreaaall..and then..i went to sleep...thas about it.............
[sept. 2o.2oo2]

2002-09-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

[ .ssshhyeah..newphone..itsucks!!chestpains.stillonasexdrive.indescribablefeelings. ]
blah blah..todae was aight..after skool...drove around&went to the liberry..mann, i felt the "massive" chestpains doode..on the realz..bout to bust a tear..i dunno...after that, we chilled for a while, then went to fuji cuz we got practice todae..wanna knoe whas a trip?? no one came..well, guys..the only ones who went was jeff.francis&near the end..scuba...but he wasnt feelin good..then kevin&berto came wen we were all done..we dint really practice much this time..mann, while hula peeps were practicing there was this hella niiiiice song..OMG!! i was soOo close to cryin...really..blahhh...& tha fact that im still on my sex drive fucks it up even more..sex.thoughts.problems.bothering me.bruised&broken.forbidden.wha is all that??? mann, whateva..this is gon be short..errthang i have inside...will be kept inside........fooooorrrreverr..muahahah..LoL!! naw naw.....

2002-09-17T05:58:00.000-07:00

[ .sexuaLLyprOne//extrasensitive.wasthatallBS??.whasgOinOn?!.. ]
mann, wussup with the weather?? its all hot one dae and then the next it like a effin' storm..wussup with that?? anyway, nothing much happened todae..mann, after skool..at the ROTC hallway..muahah!! i made 5o cents singing with a guitar!! yayyyy!!! mann, that was some funnie shit!! "_____ your teeth are big&green..______ you smell like gasoline..___ oh oh oh ___!!!" & the guitar..goood lorsh..i dunt even knoe how to play that thing...jes "strummin my pain with my fingers??" i guess..whateva mann..after that we waited for jeff to get his something sheet signed..then me&kaybee went to fuji to go check up on her mom..mann, that phone call?? //yell! yell! yell!// foreal..it was scary..then kaybee jes looked at me..mad.."where do you wanna go now??.[3 secs. L8erz]-->muUahHAhAHhAhAHa" she jes started laughing and talken about her mom 123o! no 23o? huh?? then we walked to the ex-change and bumped into pie.jeff&francis..chilled out and jes sang with the guitar..this time with REAL songs..went inside..picked up pics..got a smoothie and saw pat.scuba&leonard..i think they got outta practice early todae cuz it started raining..we all went back to fuji..chilled..debu practice..and this time my partner was there..mann, he beat me up!!! foreal..i went home with like scratches down my arm and shit...its koOo though..i can take it!! im stroonngg!! yeeeaahh..but we actually got the dances now..pat's a hella quick learner...weeerrdd..jeff wasnt able to go to practice though cuz like he was sick so yeah..[1 15170111 11140 17715530 4011!!!] muahaha..mann, i needa get over this shit and jes hold his hand!!! i knoe i can do it..i jes hope that he knoes im trying and he doesnt push away..seriously..imissyouleonard!!soOohellamuch!!.well...after practice..i went with kaybee..dropped pie home..my brother home and went back..then i chilled with bris for awhile..did my homework and then i went home...mann, ive been hella emotional L8Ly..and my sexdrIve is still goin on...im hella sensitive rite now..so no body...touch me!!!!seriously..i needa know..wussup?? i mean, i swear...same ol shit jes runnin' through my head 24 effin 7!! mann, "picture you smile..inside of my head..still smell your cologne allllll over my bed"..carry me up..tight tight hugs...i really miss him...mannnnnn..ima do this...next practice...im taken your hand!!!! muahaha...anyway, ima continue L8erz.....

2002-09-16T02:01:00.000-07:00

[ .i feel soOo....BLANK but i have soOo much on my mind. ]
dayam..another RAINY DAE..geeezzz..well, not much really happened todae...jes thoughts..&more thoughts&more thoughts..all these are jes fuckin the shit outta me..i dunno..i still got that shit botherin me..and at the same time..theres more things bothering me..i tried callen jen todae..for like how many times now..she needs to believe it aint me..er it wasnt me..i cant lose one of my best frens over that shit..and im serious..especially wen i KNOE i dint have anything to do with it..i mean, why else would i keep tryin to save this frenship if i did it intentionally?? i mean, seriously...thas jes stoopid..but i lah her & i hope she believes me soOon..on the other hand..me&andrew kinda stopped talk too...i dunno wha happened there?? anyway..question..::"is there something about the way i act or whateva that would make a person lose trust in my er look at me in a different way??" i dunno how that is actually possible..i mean, speak for yourself buddie..think about wha you doin...aaaaahhhh...ANYWAY..it jes the same stuff on my mind.i was jes doin anatomy notes and listening to slow jams and for some reason i got all...whas that word???? ---emotional---..."jes sitting in my room thinking about you.." well, thas about it..prolly blog a lil L8er...

[.//human nature--"dont say goodbye"//.]

2002-09-15T06:43:00.000-07:00

[ .sOng of the dae. ]

·.·.·*nobody knows*·.·.·

*Wish I'd told [HIM] how I felt,
Then maybe [HE'D] be here right now,
But instead...
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more everyday
And I'm dyin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

*Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

*Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around

*The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

*I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

*I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

*How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still

*The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

*Tomorrow morning I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me

*The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me...

2002-09-14T11:30:00.000-07:00

[ .thinking..lecture?! i wish it was that easy. ][.FAAAAWWWKKK..i have to write this all over cuz it got deleted BIAAAAAAAA!!!!!.]
anyway, this morning..i woke up at around 123o?? called belle to see if she was comin on base..she sed she wasnt er she was gonna try but i doubt it..called pie..to see wha she was doing and then got ready to go out..me&pie went out..kat's house..saw dave.ervin&rocha..then jes left and drove around..saw pat.francis&jesse at the tennis courts..then dion.scuba&jeff came..we jes chilled..went to the ex-change because for some reason..with this stoopid.retarded weather..it was cold?! and pat wanted to buy a sweater..we went there..chilled..drove around..went to pie's court..some incident about miko..jeff left..we found him agen..pat.tris.francis&leonard left to play tennis..so me.pie.dion.jeff&scuba went to eat mongo..waited forevveer for seats..AND for our food..whatta succckkaa...left..met them at the tennis courts..and saw cj&his frens...chilled thea for a while..wen they were done playing tennis..we drove to tris' tower because thas whea the van was and the ikego peeps went home..pie decided to go home to so i moved to jeff's car with tris..we chilled at fleet parking lot real quick cuz it was starting to hella rain..and then went i was about to go home we chilled in jeff;s car in front of my house and had the looongest.deeeepest talk..everr...OMG!! i lah you guys!! thanks soOo much! foreal...ima take some advice.."why dont you guys jes go out?..make it official?..str8en shit up..yall need to get together..seriously.." i knoe!!!!! and then bris drove by to come over..all alone..11 at nite...on a rainy dae..driving by himself..wha a loner!!! muahah..joke..so then me and bris chilled at my house..as always..watched some of SNL..APOLLO..and my movie!! the BROTHERS!! i love that movie..then he went home at like 245..muahah..no lifers on the realz..thas about it..mann, that convo. i had is trippen me out..foreal...its jes wierd cuz i was able to open that person up..get to the deep side..maybe the side not many peeps have seen before...the way that person acted.talked.errthang...it jes...you jes knoe it!!! tha *connection* between you guys..the vibbeess..the lil moments..the long.deep talks...[dayam there was alot to say in the first part i wrote but something happened&now i fergot!!!!!! gggrrr...=@]..tha fact that that person was able to admit it..and it was wierd..thas wha really tripped me out though..how peeps came up to me about how blah blah..told us wussup..and errthang like that..and if i only knew that the peeps we were worried about didnt really give a shit and really wanted IT to happen..maybe shit wouldve been different.."who gives a fuck about errone else..jes as long as your happy".ima take some advice..but its jes hard.."theres no easy way..it gets harder each day" its jes a trip how all the times..memories..jes me runnin through my head 24-7...now..i dunno how that person feels..its jes hard wanting something you CANT have..not knowing how that person will react if you ask some things.."is it true....???""do you....................""wussup with......." or maybe...WHA WENT WRoNG??? ohhhhhhh geeeeezzzzzzzzzzusssss...im foreal...this shit........FU CK s ME u---P all the time..but i knoe it aint all that..jes tha fact that....oh damn......whateva...this sucks..2nd chance??? i hope....i dont even knoe anymore...i dont wanna feel pathetic and a stoopid ass but at the same time..i cant control it..i doubt that the realization is there..some needs to have a talk with that person..please...i dunno..that convo. jes fucked my up and i think its gon be on my mind for a while..."jes str8 up and ask about it" ahhhh..i needa talk..i needa ask..i needa know..BLLAHH..thas about it....[fawk! im pissed..i wrote madd shit..wha happened??]

2002-09-13T07:50:00.000-07:00

[ .HaPPY BiRTHDaE TRiS!!!!!!!.FoOtbaLL=ASiJ "boOo!!".bamiyan..mmMmm.todae was fun!.HLs·HLs. ]
hmMM..mann todae was FUNNN!!! on the realz..other than the stoOpid weather..thas about it..well, to start off...this morning was confusing..i dint know whether pie was goin to skool er not?! called her house..no one pickin up..her cell..outta range...and then i realized i was the only one home so i thought that my dad locked the door and wen pie was supposed to jes walk in she couldnt and thought that i left..so i went downstairs and IT was locked! and then wen i left...i was near the stop sign and she called my cell..so i walked to her house and then we went to skool..pretty confusin huh?? muaha..nothing much happened at skool todae..but yeah..after skool...hmMm..we went to pie's court because she had to de-alienize herself and become human..naw naw..they changed her passport..and then we chilled at the hospital because we went over there to pick up auntie annie..aww..jeff dont be JAY-LUS! muaha..and then kay decided to go home so me and kaybee switched to jeff's car..OMG!! where is tris?? its his fricken birthdae..he dint go to skool [hes a pussy..skurred of gettin his assed kicked! muahah JOKE =)] but we went errwhea to find him and we could find him..and then we went to mean genes..some funnie shit happened in the car jes cruisin...me.kaybee.belle.jeff.scuba&francis..scuba's freestyle?? gaaaa heaaaad!! muaha..and then wen we went to mean genes..we got maddd free food and FINALLY, saw TRIS & PIE..after that..we drove around some more..and chilled at the parking lot by the tennis courts..and chilled for a long time because most of our frens were at tennis practice...mann jeff! you have a doooope palm pilot!

and then we went offbase to eat BAMIYAN!!! me.kaybee.jeff.francis.pat.tris.kevin.leonard&martin..mann, that was some funnie assss shiiiiiit..but before that..me.scuba.kaybee&jeff had to go pick kevin up and on our way there we saw dion..he jes came from off base with his rents..i think?! mann, kaybee...HL! HL!."sohw taht?--yhw uoy lla ydahs??? cant say hii?" mmmmmmannnn oohh mannnn!!!.."lil touches? every lil moment..".and then the funnie shit happens at bamiyan!!...like wen jeff&tris put some mustard shit in francis' fried rice..and he was eaten adn eaten and eaten..MmMmMm SoOOoOo good huh?? and all of a sudden jeff busts out laughing!!!! and then tris..and then francis starts laughing but he thinks its about jeff but its not! and if you jes heard how loud he was laughing wen we were all laughing at him..muahah...[lah yah francis!] but it was funnie...and then after...francis.jeff&pat kept needing to throw up..it was groooosss as shit!! francis actually did though...and then we decided to go to mores for pics...and then we only had enough time to take one cuz kaybee had to go home soon..mann, we needed a fricken camera...cuz then scuba&dion came and we met up with them at beef bowl..and you shoulda seen their "grease lightninnnn" dance!! aaaahhhh..mann, i shoulda brought the video camera..memorieeess....at mores...we took pics...and then went back to base..."happy birthdae to trrrriiiiss...happy birthdae to triiiiss!!!! =D" mann, then kaybee went home..we chilled...then it started MADDD raining..like real bad..i was like..wha tha?? whead that all come from?! it was wierd..it jes kept comin down..and then the ikego peeps went...adn then martin went home so i went to tris' car..and then we looked for jeff...who was with kevin..went we found them..scuba called and told us to wait for him..we dropped kevin home..went backa nd found scuba&dion..mann, the convo. between me.jeff&tris?? G-14 CLASSiFiED!!!!! "cut somethin???" muahah..."tear it up...get that cuuuttt uppp...hit that shit..."..mann, you guys are soOo not koOo!! not niiiiice...stop though!! dont slip aight?? please?????? and then we drove around...scuba&dion came into tris' car and then they dropped me home..mann, i got MADD HL's todae!!!!! on the realzzz.... "i got your seat reserved RITE hea...[sits on lap]".."boy you knoe you gotta body-ody-ody.." oOoOohHhHwEeEe.."gOt caught!" rite jeff??? cant hide nothing??? whaaaa???? and then i went home..mann, kaaaybbeee...wusssupp with all this shit happenin???? on the realz..but i had madd funn todae...foreal..we lost both of our games..i was tryna call pie's cell to see if she was still at the game by the time we got back onbase but i dint get a response fromt he skymail and i couldnt get hold of her phone..well, anyway..mann, i dunno anymore...it succkkkss BIGGGG BALLLSSS!!!!!! forealllll...well, i dunno wussup tomorrow.....*maassage here.&.massage there* mann, i HELLA miss leonard doode...like its wierd wen jeff & them are always fucken around with it but wha am i supposed to do?? bust out cryin' at them...its hard...he really hates me..damn..well, thas pretty much it.....interestinnng..mmMmMmm..*its all because of you..its all you..you're the one i want...................* [.hOwcOuLdyOo.]

2002-09-12T05:25:00.000-07:00

[ .OpenhOuse.i have a cold!!=(.chilled with my buddie..bris..[whatta loser?!]muahaha. ]
well, todae.....umMm..skool?? blah blah..i actually left my hair down..curly and shit..blllahh...umMm..we got our planners todae!! yay!! except they aint all that..and kinnicH high school?? oooohhh hellll naw! muahah...but its koOo..i can start on my no life and decorate it..write down my diary and shit like that..errrone knoes that!!!! my planner! woOoOoHoOoOo!!! anyway, and then.......after skool...i went to my dental appointment..mann, mr. stanley's class is the shit!! foreal..non-stop laughs..haha...and then i went to the food court and met bris&kat there...and then pie&belle&kaybee&kay came..and then we saw francis.jeff&martin...and then we jes chilled there for a while..then BELLE&BRIS left and went to the benny decker..we went to taco bell and then my house...with jeff&martin..chilled there and then went to the open house...we walked! haha...after that..pie went home..and so did errone else..i chilled with bris...did maddd homework [thanks you SMART ASSSSSS] muahaha...im skurred of my anatomy test tomorrow?!?! =S...yiiiiikess! haha...watched MTV & BET at his house..mann, i miss the states soOoOo bad!!!! and then we were jes there..i was jes waiting for him to finish all his homework..AP classes my ASS!!! so wha biiiia!? and then we watched the "rock the boat video" ..it was koOo..aaliyah is HOT! haha..and then we would like jes be quiet and then outta no where....AAAAAAAAAHHHH..and scare eachother..and then laugh at eachother..wha losers huh?? we have lives!! shoooooooo...and thas about it..i drove home!! yaya!!!! muahaha...and then as my no life self..i am online writing about wha i did todae!! ahahha....shit..im gay..welll, i needa talk to someone because that person has something to tell me...hMMmMmMmm...i wannnnnnnnna knnnnowwww.....muahahha...well, i dont even wanna put feelings in here cuz they always the same.."theres no easy way it gets HARDER each day.." "NOBODY knoes it BUT me!!!" yanno..allll thooooose.....

2002-09-11T06:30:00.000-07:00

[ .ONeYeAR=9-11.deep talk.foundsomeshitout....agen...sexdrIve... ]
wha happened todae?? umm..skool..mann, we had that one flag ceremony thingy..it was sad..and then after skool, me.pie&kaybee went to the commissary to buy some food cuz we gon cook pansit for the peeps who are gon be at practice..mann, we ran ALOT of errands todae?! weeeeerrrdd...my hands smelled like fricken gralic.onions..whateva! wooooo...my gooosh!! went to the commissary agen.."he talked to me! he talked to me! =Dmuahaha" and then we had practice...same ol shiiitt...i had a talk with someone..felt good to get it out...i was soOoOoOo close to cryin!! on the realz..but i dint...kept it in..."you guys should go out?! er maybe get back together???" maaann...foreal...thas about it..drove around with bris for a while..then chilled at my house...he left at around 1o3o?? yeaahhh..jes chillen on my couch..maken wierd and stoopid crackheaded jokes..then we had to drop at tape off to piara's house and then on our way back to my house..OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we saw a whooole marching group for COCKroaches!!!!!! eeeeeewwww....*cricket* hahahahhahahahahaah..hes sucha crack! we got the wierdest jokes....muahaha..and doode, lately..ive been haven like..wha do you call it?? a sexxxxxx drrriiiivvveee...like feeling a lil more excited or anceier than normal...its wierd...foreal!!!!! but dayam..im very sensitive about "that kinda stuff " thatll HIT the G-SPoT!!!!! oOOoOOoohHhhHh yeah!!! haha...but thas it.......words to explain how else im feeling::"why? why? why? and how could you?????" thas bout it!!!

2002-09-10T04:26:00.000-07:00

[ ."dans ebreybady..dans!..dabel time!"muaha!! gettin'thahangofit..waltz.waltz.waltz. ]
wooooowwzzerrzz...dance till you drop! woOo whatta work out! on the realz..mann, that was a tiring practice though..but we gotta do this...yall!! we cant be gettin mad and shit..she tha one who was L8..but this is for kaybee errone!! aight?? well, nothing really happened todae..other than the fact that it was sunny and started raining..i was like..wha tha?? man thas crap! and it kept gettin harder and harder..blllaahhh..i hate it wen it rains though.."all of those rainy days..spent your life time tryna wash away..till the sun comes and shines agen..smile for me...smile for meee.." and then belle like was hit with a maaaajor headache..i dunno wha happened to her but yeah...well, dayam....thas about it...other than inside feelings...bllllllahhhh.."i can seeee...seee it in your eyes...i can feel...yes it feels so right.." i knoe knoe knoe that there is something there!!!! i knooooooooooe it! mann, wha can i do? it hurts...in the inside..and at the same time i feel like i jes lost my bestestest fren in the world!!!!! i cant have this shit happenin...yanno?? but i got madd love for yahhhhhh.....member that alllways aight?? well, ju knoe i got your back through errthang..i also got some shit to tell yah so yeah..wheneva you decided to read this..jes remind me aight?? well, thas pretty much it..i have a soOoOoper sore throat..from i have no idea what?! and like it hurts...even wen i swallow...and then i am lightheded and shit..i think im sick....awwwww...its koOo..i got this! muahah...well, aight..NOW thas pretty much it...same shit as always............

2002-09-09T02:50:00.000-07:00

[ .coLLegeFAiR..muahah!!!! igOtjOkes! rite??. ]
[.bris wants me to write about him & make him popular...]

nothing much todae..went to skool..got an A on my anatomy test!! shhhhhyeah..wha now?! and then me&belle had our talk..as always..3rd period..fosho..after skool..we went to pie's house and then my house..chilled..went to the college fair and thas about it..ohh! we ate at the galley todae..after like forevvveeerrr..well, yeah...nothing really new..same ol shit runnin' through my mind and all so yeah...next paragraph..bris wants me to write about him..alot about him soOo yeah...get ready to learn about mr. kris bryan casiano [bris]

his name is KRiS CASiANo..but he is known as BRiS..hes a senior in highskool and he is really smart..he is a soOoper OREO= dark ont he outside and white in the inside..he is sooper white washed..he is my kuya..one of my closest guy-frens and me and him are koo...seen eachother cry and laugh at the wierdest things...hes dooope to talk to and he will always be there for you if you tell him to be serious...haha...mann, thanks for everything BRIS..from the mopin'&gropin' to the advice and the crackheaded moments..waaaasssaaapp?? haha.."jes go for it doode...go for it doode...goooo fooooooor it dooooooooode"..playas they gon play..huh?? thas not kool...anyway..mann, where would i be without you..i jes want you to knoe that you needa think about your decisions before doing anything aight?? cuz i dont want you gettin' hurt......agen....and if yanno how that feels..i sure do think that you dont want anyone else feeling like that..yanno?? ju get me? haha..on the realz..aight???? member that there is someone there who cares about you and you know..even I knoe that that person aint gon never hurt you!!!!! yannnno.."it aint my phhhhonne..it aint my phooooonne." haha...thas a koo song..im dope..made it all up!! thanks for the [kitkat breaks] ju knooooe...and the rides..and for always lettin me drive!! yeeeeaaahhh...be good aight?? mann...im sorry..IM ALWAYS MEAN TO YOU.....laugh out loud..muahah!! wha kinda loser wears that kidna stuff huh bris?? haha..well, bris was at the college fair todae and i was like...whaa?? and then we have practice tomorrow for dancing agen..mann...GOOOOooOoOoOoOoDdDdDDdd LUUUUUCCK BRIS...cuz you suck suck suck!! haha naw naw..jes messin..[g'luck belle?!] HAhHAhHAhHAhAhHA!! anyway, there goes your paragraph bris..hope your happy..and it aint as mean as i always put..ju knoe..about like..you sucken dick and loving the DiCK!! haha...im jes messin withchhhuu!! well, dont forget my porn tapes with the HOT LesbIan SEX aight?? ju knoe i love that action!!!! hahah..aight..well, thas about it for now.....

2002-09-08T04:19:00.000-07:00

[ .debupractice..(sorrypat..yougotthestoopidpersonhuh??). ]
[ .iDONTlikeseeingit.butwhacanido?!.ONTHELooKoUT!!!. ]
todae i went to church..got in a lil argument with my mother cuz she was talken about how my skirt was toOo short er something..BLAH..and then after church..we went to get some MCdonalds..doode, i swear that shit is fattenin me up!! on the realz..and then i went home and my rents went off base for something?! i dunno..i did my homework cuz i got madd shit to do for anatomy...foreal..went to pie's house and chilled there...i fell alseep while she was doing her homework and thennnn...we decided to go out! drive around..something...went to mcdonalds...agen...went to sullivan's parking lot..met kaybee up there..went with kaybee to fuji..and then went to shobu...we saw the guys before that and then we all went to shobu together..and then it was ready for practice..mann, that shit looked easy but damn..its hard!!! well, kinda..you gotta get used to it but still..you swear i did that shit naturally every day as a normal routine er something...but NoOoOoOo!! so forgive me if i am kinda slow at it!! i felt soOo bad though...i hope he doesnt get frustrated at the fact that i am his partner and all..i hope he doesnt have any problem with it...mann, i felt bad though..hella bad..sorry..i hope you dont think bad er anthing..like yanno...regretting that im your partner but yeah..sorrrrryy..and ethen after all that..mann..whatta work out!! i bes lose some weight with this shit..haha..foreal..mann, i swear..i hate seeing that shit!!! it pisses me off and at the same time..i dont knoe how else to act..yanno?? shady? naw naw...same? frenly? c'mon now..it aint that easy..i can see the lil looks, touches, blah blah blah..theres a lil spark there..i dont give a fuck about how lil but its still there...mann, "i want something i cant have.." dayam, thats jes toOo bad...well, FUCK THIS SHIT..on the realz..ill jes act the way i always do..hide it and fight it...the pain is always there though..mann, these feelings.......they'll neever go away.....whhhyy?? well, i guess thats how it is...FOR NOW...i got this..muahahahaha!!! haha...welll, thas about it.......................

2002-09-07T05:54:00.000-07:00

[ .MoNGoNiTE."andimbacckinthegame!"muaha..igOtintrOuble..sorry... ]
mann, this morning i woke up at like 11..talked to my auntie from daygo and then called belle cuz she sed she needed to tell me some shit so yeah...damn...i HELLA miss leonard mann..i swear i do..but i guess he is really serious about not talken to me EVER agen..i jes hope he changes his mind about it...sometime...and then i fixed my clothes, and madd cleaned my room...dressed up and went to pies...i all went there cuz she told me to and then wen i got there she wasnt there..i was like..wha tha? whea she go?? and then she got home and i was sitting at her table to find out that she jes came from my house..muahah...wierd huh?? anyway, we went to the ex-change...chilled...saw pat..found out that errone was at the commissary parking lot fixing up a car...so we left and went there...jeff.dion.scuba&francis were there...then me&pie went to get mcdonalds...and then while we were eating back at the parking lot..HOLY SHITBALLLSS.....pie like...had this reaction to this one ugly thing she saw....baaaaaaaaacked up and drove outtah there...holy shit it was fucken HILERIOUS!!!!! on the realz..if you only saw her reaction..we were jes chillen thea..talken...she DROPS her MCchicken sandwhich and whooooooo...it was funnie..and then we drove around...went to my court for a while..then sullivan's parking lot...and then pie left and we went to her court [imreallysorryagenpie.]and i got in trouble.......and then we stayed there...for awhile..kaybee got there..we drove to seaside..and then decided that we dint wanna eat yet so we drove around..went to the gas station rite quick..and chilled at the ex-change for a while..and then we went back to seaside...waited for FOREVERRR to get seats and decided to jes take it to-go...then we had to wait agen for the food...i sat with bris.lito.&ace real quick...chatted with them..."waaaasssaaa???" and then wen we got our food..we went to the gazeebo but ajisai.[memories:S] and then we ate..drove to that one place by shobu tower...had a lil talk with pat.jeff&francis...and how they dont like stingy peeps...[ahem..i knoe whoooooo!!] and about BiTCH-GiRLS!! blaaaaaahhhh.....hahah and then pie.scuba.&leonard got there and then the ikego boys decided to go home...mann, pat broke my necklace...=(..itss ookkaaee..i can fix it..IM MS. FIX-IT!!! fosho..haha...[that was gay] and then we dropped them to their van..had a lil talk with jeff...and then i got outtah jeffs car and went to pies and we are frens agen...ahhhh siighh** hehehe...oh mann..im soOo gay..anyway, i went home after that...mann, someone doesnt even wanna talk to someone enymore..on the realz...mann.."annnnddd im baaaaack in the game!!!" [1oTHiNGSiHATEABoUTYoU]muahah..i sure am..we have debu practice tomorrow at 53o@shobu tower party room..these dances bes be easy to learn..muahah..anyway, HL! HL! HL! yay...well, thas about it...im bout to go do homework...what? roanne?? do homework??? neeeeevvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeerrrrr....muahah...aight....maybe something will change.....-i need a massage- im tired.......theres HOPE! haha.......

2002-09-06T06:24:00.000-07:00

[ .DEViLS vs TROJaNS=BoOoOo!!.]
[rainydaes.XxX-oOoOohHhWwEe..HoTTiE!!. ]
mann, todae was a long dae..on the realz...we dint have a teacher tha whole 4th period...it was dope! muahah...some funnie shit too...its fucken raining mann! its soOo ugly outside..aLot of cuties though..all dressed up and errthang..haha..mann, i saw leonard..i really miss him..soOo much..maybe toOo mcuh but i do..tomorrow is gonna be 3 months since he stopped talken to me and i think he is really serious about not ever talken to me ever agen...he is more happy and he has one less thing to have drama over..hmMm..i really miss you leonard...anyway..after skool..we jes chilled around...i dont think it was really a good time to go to zama but i knoe we gon KiCK THEA ASSS!!! fosho...umMm...chilled at sullivan's parking lot rite quick...5709..muahah..."BiTCH GiRL!!" mann, tha playa's game is RUiNED...damn, aint that a sucka? chilled at martin's house..dyes hair..ate really spicy soup...naired scuba's leg hairs..haha...went to go watch mah babe...ViN DiESEL!!!!!!oOoOOHHhHhwWwEeEe jizzzz** fuckkkk..he was soOoOoOO SEXY...and then rite after that...we went to benny to watch reign of fire and that was the boringest movie..i swear..i fell asleep...mann, hes soOo mean to me..i swear...i dont even do anything and hes mean...sometimes he takes it to the extent wen it hurts and that aint even koo no moe...i jes dont want to say anything cuz i knoe there will always be something there for him to say back thas not nice...at least most of us were kinda gettin along todae..i really missed how things USED to be...on the realz..and i HoPE things go back...i knoe they will...they have to...i wish he would knoe that he is being TOO mean...i dunno..whateva...im soOo tired..im happy that its a fridae though..i need to get some sleep...skool is tiring me out on the realz..well, i still got that thing bothering me...yanno...wen you dun really wanna realize it but you knoe its there jes happening...and no matter wha you do...you always think about it or thoughts of it alwas run through your head...i dunno...im jes gonna have to deal with it and the pain...have you ever thought of something soOo hard it hurt??? yeaaahh..ALL THA TiME...well, les jes hope that alot of things change................................

2002-09-05T03:57:00.000-07:00

[ .iknOe.iknOe.itsobvious.hurtsbutwhacanido??. ]
[.game tomorrow: ZAMA's GOiN DOWN.]
mann, lunch todae was fucken HiLERiOUS!! on the realz...BoTToM-EATER?? muahah..pie and her.."i dont get it...." its koOo...we had fun though...after skool..we stayed at the court yard for a lil while..i swear..THaT GuY..the one at the liberryy...gggrRRrR..on the realz..he has been bothering me for about 3 daes now..and is still goin!!! and then chilled at the tennis courts for a while cuz kaybee thought she was gonna start being manager for tennis..but she got bored and i dont think she gonna do it no moe...and then went to bris'..ate soup that had nothing but noodles...mMm..it was good though...bris wants me to put him in this blog almost errdae because he wants to be FAMOUS and because his job working the CORNER isnt doing so well...he told me...$15 every other nite?? mann...i dont really think he loves the DICK..muaha..anyway..drove around...chilled...funnie shit..went to pies..."someone's gonna get their ass kicked!!! muahaha" and then chilled at pies house...[sorry pie...i really would go with you to ZAMA but i have no MULA..] on the realz...dun be mad...and then i went home..thas about it..oh mann, i know it!!! yes yes yes...i can see it...every lil thing....wha was with me is now happenin to her..and i know how that goes already..mann, kaybeee!! member?? "hey beb....blah blah blah babe this and babe that.." but i hella miss it!!!!! foreeeeeaaall...GOAL: i need to get things str8...see wussup...whas next? i got my lil highlites though..yay!!! lil touches...mann...well, i hope nothing happens with them...hmMm..really...that wouldnt be so good..yanno?? whatevaaaaa.............BLAHHHH

2002-09-04T03:55:00.000-07:00

[ .hmMm.thoughts.LiLHiGHLiTES. ]
hmMm..havent blogged in a while...well, todae nothing interesting really happened...skoOol...kuya is leaving tomorrow..we chilled at the ex-change for a while...me.pie.belle.kaybee&jacks..chilled at the liberry..some funnie shit..muahaha!! and then we went hoome...did my laundry and my homework...[sorrykuya..iknoeyouleavingandallbutilahyahandihavemaddshittodo] pie came over and i had to go to the ex-change...bought some things...and then on our way home we saw lonely richie...muahah..chilled at his house for a while...whatta cute baby..haha...he looked like a ghur wen he was small..and then jes went home and studied more...geeezzz..im stressin....i dunno..it still bothers me...and my kuya..he is hurting...its aight....if she hurts you..ima kick her ass!! muahah..jokeee...well...thas bout it...

2002-09-02T04:05:00.000-07:00

[ .debupractice.feeLings&thoughtsrunninthroughmyhead. ][.LABoRDaY.]
todae...hmMm...i felt like i still had a 42179-011312 wen i woke up and i couldve sworn i had the wierdest dream!!! i told pie about it and she thought i was crazy and was laughing...it was fucken wierd though!! on the realz...and then at arounf 2 me&pie went to fuji tower to see errone for the debu practice..and can you beleive??? the instructor was L8.....about an hour&a1/2 L8...its koOo..mann..my fren looked fucken gooooOoOooOoOoodd todae...mMmMMmMm...boOty-licious! on the realz..haha....i was like...dayam...haha...but then we ended up not having practice and jes talken about wha tha schedule is gon be...drove around..chilled..niiiiiiiceee red nautica jacket at the ex-change...and the other one that brings back memories..ahhhhhh..sigh* hhaah..me&pie were all trying them out..-OUR FRENS- muahha..thas about it...and then kaybee&belle could chill with us for an hour er so...watched the guys play tennis...dayam..most of them got DARK as fuck...but its koo...they niggggggaas like meee!!! =D haha...on the realz....i still got those thoughts in my head..and i found my slow jam cd...and omg..i was ballen!!! on the realz...this is really bothering me..or can i say..killen me..it hurts alot...but i cant do anything about it ...les jes HoPE that something will change and get better than where its at rite now...memories that i think about fricken run through my mind 24-7...but yeah........i jes hope it gets better........................................

2002-09-01T01:15:00.000-07:00

[ .whOa..wha happened?!.deeptaLkwithkaybee...thanks!tristoOo...01211715-119 ]
no skool tomorrow..YES!!! but we have debu practice...i dint blog last nite..dint come home till about 2 in the fricken morning...deep talk with kaybee wen we got home cuz she slept over?! mann, thanks ghur! i had to GET ALL THAT OUT....cuz it hurts toOo fucken much!! tris toOo..i talked to him...cried to him..i went crazy.....i love tris..and he made me cry even more wen he hugged me and told me that he gon be there for me through everything..wen i find something out..i have to tell tris..if its killen me er whateva...tris has to knoe...i love you tris!!! long ass nite...=baLLenOuTTahcOntroL=..tears flowing...[sOrryPAT ifyougotmadatme?!:SdintmeantOpushyouaight??]it was a long nite...had madd fun..chillen with frens...cracken jokes...haven fun...but at the end.....something jes went wrong...not really...well, that was last nite..ima always member that nite...the screamin..the tears...letting it all out...the pain of jes seeing them together...i keep it inside...i jes still think about it...why? why? why? i mean, ima write this L8erz

2002-08-30T07:34:00.000-07:00

[ .happy birthdae beLLe!!!. ][ .fooTbaLL.hoTTies.wwwwhhhooOoOaaa. ]
todae is belle's birthdae..dayam ghur! SWeeT SeX-TeeN!! muahah..well, ju knoe wha ima say so yeah...hope errthang is koOo foe you aight?? well, todae we dint really do nothing..i think we were supposed to have debu practice todae but it has been switched to mondae..since there is ...-->NO SKOOL!!!!<--..yeahyaaahh!! and then after skool..we chilled at the ex-change for a while...and then umMm...chilled at kaycee's house...had fun! watch saving silverman..haha...NEIL DIAMOND..muahah..and then...we had to drop kaybee to the ex-change and shit was funnie from then on and then belle decided to go home toOo..cuz she had to go eat her rents...I MEAAAN, eat out her rents..I MEEEAAN, eat out WITH her rents..haha...and then me.kay.&pie saw tribal and them and chilled there for a while and then we went to the football game...sat with bailey&joel..WHOA! hotties!!!! i got me a date! muahaha..ssshhhyeahhh rite..he fucken HOT though! on the realz..and then we all went home and me&pie decided to go watch SIGNS at 9 but we dint..once we got to the parking lot..dion.scuba&martin were there and we all decided to jes chill...we stayed up at sullivans...and jes drove around...and then jes chilled...errone went home so we decided to go home...go some MCDoNALDs...and then wen i got into the car..OMG!! i couldve sworn i saw a big ass bug on my leg...i got outtah the car fosho!! that shittt..OOoOoOhhh grr...i hate them things!!! well, i jes got done reading somethings...there are things needed to be sed and str8 up.."dont worry about ANYTHING doode...i swear..this shit already happened...theres alot more but thas mainly it..i lah yah!" mann, not much worries for me..he is talken to me now...and i am happy about that..its jes tha thought.......and the other thoughtS............................i miss you...on the realz............the damage already done but forever remembered.....forgiven but havent fogotten...and dont think i can..its HARD.............dont worry.....

2002-08-29T04:22:00.000-07:00

[ .thaTRUTHcomesOUT.wow.OUCH. ]
hmMm..nothing new...

2002-08-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

[.happy birthdae DION!!!. ][ .allFUCKEDup.why?!.whoa..thathurt...ALoT. ]
damn..dint blog yesterdae but ima blog todae...i cannot believe this is happenin..todae..i finally got my schedule str8...errthings aight now...we ate at seaside todae..it was fawken HOT..im serious! after skool...me&kaybee had to meet with her mom and then met errone at the NEX..then chilled at dion's house cuz...(8)"its his birthdae! its his birthdae!!"(8) haha...mann, mr. stanley's class was funnie!! foshoo...and then me&pie went home and found out that we already starten the debu dance practices...foreal..thas koOo...then i went to the nex with my rents and saw dion.tracy.scuba.pat&leonard..yuuupp...and then i talked to belle's mom so that she can stay after on fridae [her birthdae]...mann...tha things i do for that ghurl!!! im soOo serious.....she is my fricken sister...i dunno wha i would do without her...or pie..or even kaybee...on the realz..i dnnnnnooo...and now im thinking..thinking about soOo much...mann...i miss you soOo much its not even funnie...wha is going on now...wha happened??? "i didnt wanna notice it..."i dint..but i knew...and it hurts..and im jes like..."wow..i dint know it could hurt this much...and i dint know how hurtful it could be"..the chestpains...the lost of breath wen you think about it..i have no reason...im nice..toOo nice...ive done everything...i jes cant believe that happened..mann, enough..ive cried enough..at nite..in the morning..during skool...even wen im around them..wen i see them..its jes all inside...goshhhhh....how can i deal with all this......its jes toOo hard..i never thought i would go through something like this..on the realz...i feel like i am being toOo nice and that i am jes letting this get away..i feel like this person doesnt care and that that person has gotten passed by this situation...it hurts soOo much..i jes dont wanna make it as big of a deal as i should because i dont want a frenship to end even though thas wha some peeps i talk to tell me i should do..do i have a rite to get mad??? think about it roanne.......youll live.........ima be alright....................i hope.......

2002-08-26T06:32:00.000-07:00

[ .FiRSTDAYoFSKooL.itwasCRAP=realize=."imabeaLright".
iknewit.didntevenNoticeit.ithurtsbutjesHIDEit.icandoit. ]
dayam..todae was the first dae of skool..beeelleeed that! OMG..it was CRAP..i hated it...2nd period ws dope though..US HiSTORY with pie.lito.robyn.mann..it was funnie..me&pie could not stop laughing at lito..geeeeeezzuuss..and then...HoNoRS ENGLiSH??? dayam..i already got a zero on a report...fawk that! im out! i cant take all that reding crap..jes aint me..fosho!we ate lunch at MCDoNALDS...mMmMm goodd..i saw kaybee todae!! after like..FOREVERRRR...its koOo..JUNiORS!! yayaaaaahhh!! anyway..

.sOngoftheDae."imaBEalright"

-its funnie cuz for a while
i walked around with a smile
but deep inside i could hear voices telling me this aint right
dont you knoe its not for you
i always knew what i had to do
but its hard to get away
though it brings tears to my eyes
i can feel it
and i know inside im gonna be alright
never thought it would be true
me livin without you
but now its time for me to make a move-

damn...i love that song..foreal..i think i killed it but i have my reasons...i dunno...les jes keep this short....

2002-08-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

[ .pie-yah&kaybee'sBACK!!stiLLthinking.IMAbeALRiGHT. ]
mann...i went to church todae....had a headache but PIE-YAH woke me up..dayam! haha...its koOo...then we went out&ate offbase with my family& her family..it was aight..wasnt the best in the world..i TRiPPED soOo bad wen i was holding my tray..DAYAM! muahah...and then wen we got onbase..chilled at pie's for a while...went to the gym...and then watch AUSTiN POWERS III...yup yup..its was aight!! GAY ENDiNG..i was madd..whateva..and then we jes drove around for a while and went home...watched with tris.berto.kuya&pie...yuppp...and then i was visited by lito.bris.joe.ace.&ryan..yay!! mann...fawwwwkkkerr!! skool is tomorrow..i am not ready..at all..this is crap...but still..JUNiORS!! haha...its koOo...mann....these thoughts...running through my head...always coming up at the most unexpected times...and i dont like it! its kiLLer...mann..walking to skool..no car...walking...i cant walk...im lazy.tired.notusedtoit..i cant walk..mannnnnn!!!! i hate skoOol..it can jes suck my BALLS!!!!! yeah yeah..i knooee...this is crap though!!! and i better have a class with alot of peeps..foreal...i dunno..nothing really new to add to this...same ol shit..whateva.........

2002-08-24T10:36:00.000-07:00

[ .jes a LiL...........
-->H a P p Y B i R T h D a E ! ! ! <--to: PATRICK!!!!!! . ]

.happy birthdae PAT!! & many more to come..g'Luck in errthang..take care and thanks for eveyrthing...lah yah! .

2002-08-24T10:16:00.000-07:00

[ .BONUS.caprisiosa(thanksPAT).thoughts&chestpains.tears.LETiTaLLoUT.
distant.negativefeeLing.why?! ]
mann..whatta dae...wha happened?? hmMm..to start off..i was at home for most of the time callen errone's cell to see whea they were at?! and then i called dion's and they were at jeff's tower parking lot fixing up their cars and sed give him about 1o-15 minutes..and he told me that belle was thea so yeah...er jes thea..and then wen i got there..we went to kuya's tower and they chilled there for a while..OMG..i saw 730172120?! i was soOo surprised but at the same time i could feel that pressure in your chest and i knew i was soOo about to BUST a tear! kuya was mad at me toOo..but the real story on that is that i DO call them/their cell...its either i cant get hold of them...they have no signal er i feel like i am gonna annoy them..ju knoe that lil inside feeling you have to be consious about?! yeahhh..that one! and then we went to jesse's and i talked to belle..and she about to go home soon..i wanted to see her toOo...dayam..and then we went to dion's house cuz he got spray paint all over his shirts& his hands..and he decided tot ake a shower..so yeaah..we all chilled at his house fer a lil while and then we went offbase...ate caprisiosa..some splitting up and all but yeahh...funnie shit went on..with jeff & his trippen actions...and how the jap. peeps laughed at him and shit..and how our orders were getting mixed up..and if you only saw the look on pat's face wen they turned down the lights and gave him that cake with the firecracker candle at the top..mann..he was HAPPYY!! haha...foreal though...and then we decided to go to jesse's house..chilled there...before that...we waited in leonard's van fer erryone...and geez...did i feel wierd..i miss that boy soOo much he doesnt even knoe..i was jes looking at him and goooshh...:( i dunno..and then chilled at jesse's house.....jeff hit himself how many times jeff?? like 3 times...muahaha...its okae! you gon be alright..and then..they were jes playing cards..pusoy dos..black jack..yeah yeahh..i cried todae....mann..did it hurt..and then i also had things running through my head and saw something i dint wanna see..but it hurt soOo much and i KNOE i had those chest pains and pressure of tears wanting to come out soOo bad!! IT HURTS!i cant even explain it...i miss leonard soOo much..i cant stand it wen peeps are mad at me..i balled wen kuya told me...im getting along with certain peeps but at he same time..there are NEGATIVE feelings toward someone else..I GOT THIS!!! [newmission]...i miss you...geeezzz..i have a headache..tris..thanks for the talk and the walk!!! smirnoff/pretzels!! haha...fosho! i cant take it.......i knoe there is something!! i knoe there is..and ive seen so many things that lead to the conclusion..and i jes dont want to accept it..no matter how hard it is!!!!!!i dunno...thats roanne....to act like it doesnt hurt..and jes be her happy self..HAPPY?? i dont think soOo.."i REALLY cant explain it...i am soOo into YOUUUU"..theres soOo many words to explain alot of things..but wen i think about it..it ends up hurting and not being soOo good as it sounds...mann..im tired of this...whateva.......BLLLAAAHHHHimissu..

2002-08-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

[ .feeLing..OVeRWHeLMED..chestpains.OUCH.feeLbad. ]
mann..i really dont think that they like me..i mean, like todae..i was reading belle's blog..and like she put in this one thing like before..about how its hard to be around peeps wen sometimes you dont knoe how they look at you or think about you...like if they discriminate you for your crackheadedness...er your love for having fun with the dumbest things...for laughing at your own jokes [YUP! THAS MEEE!] er some shit like that..sometimes i really wanna chill with some peeps but i feel like they get annoyed by the calls asking.."where you at??" er shit like that..yanno?? so yeah..todae...shhhiitt..i stayed home..cleaned my room..had a lil mano y mano talk with mike [acasio]..he knoes how it feels..[chestpains&burningsensations]..foreal..its hurts ALOT! waited for bris cuz he finally got his car from the shop..woOoHoOo!! no more walking for me!!! yay! and then we were gonna watch the PPG movie..but wen we went to gemma's court to drop somethings off..we saw anne&christine..lito&ace..and jes chilled there for the longest..me&ace had our talk..aww..he is such a cutie!!! cut his hair..i think he lost weight too..dayam..and then like..i bought them food at the bowling alley..i was looking for tribal and them but i dunno wha they were doing and dint really wanna bother them so yeah..i tried callin francis' cell twice...jap lady....called pat's..and like they were at martin's tower then kuya took it...i think he is mad at me..i dunno..then jes chilled at the court with lito&ace&bris...went home and watched one of gemma's v-cds of FRIENDS series...and then bris got a remote stuck in his ass!! i knew it! hes gay!!! ahaha..joke bris..[ifYOURreadingTHIS] muahah now eryone knoes!!! dont worry..they wont tell! haha...hes like my big brother that i never had...its koo...i think i was being toOo mean to him todae..and i think belle's mom hates me...erytime i call..i getta "roanne..ill tell her to call you back later.."LATER: NO CALLand then wen bris calls.."whos this? --"kris""uhh hold onn...JAAAAAASSSSSSSSSS" mann...thas wiiierrdd..and i coulda sworn i was tha only one she ever yelled at while sittin on the crapper! haha joke belle..NOT FOREAL..anyway, thas it..i jes feel alot of things rite now...im happy that pie is coming back soOon..yess!!wwwweeerrrddd...mmmkaeee..i think ima sleep early tonight..hah i have a date! muaha...thas funnie...aight...aww...BRIS is reading this and he told me to add a little more about him and the fact that [inHISwords] "HE LOVES TO JERK OFFFF"..haha foreal..and that he is wondering who stole the cookie from the cookie jar...cuz yanno FAT people need their FOOD..haha...FATTTAASSS..OH and did i mention that he is a madd FOB...he sed something todae and we jes looked at eachother and laughed...haha FOB FOB FOB..loser....anyway..thas about it.....i cant help but think about this thing that i found out before about this one doode and this one ghur..and that its was POSSIBLE..and i knew it..and it HURTS...like faaaawwwwwkkk...i guess ima jes have to let things work and see wha happens....

2002-08-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

[ .wokeup@33oPM...whaTHAfrick?!. ]
ohmyFRICKENgosh!! where is BELLE????????? i foreal need to talk to that chick...im soOo serious! she doesnt knoe how bad i need to get this shit out to her and all......mann..on the realz...[itsALLgoodstuffTOO]be happyy..bee verrry happpy!! i went offbase with my rents todae...felt wierd....offbase? no malls...geeezzzz...and then finally belle called me but i couldnt talk to her long...and then i went out with the lonliest doode on this planet...yup...you guessed it..BRIS..haha..WALKED [no car..havent walked in years...gggrrr.] to gemma's court...gave her her shoes........decided to visit lito...i guess my surprise wasnt gon last till saturdae huh?? dayam!! belle gotta go onbase tomorrow fosho cuz i knoe SOMEONE who wants to.............................yeah yeah....G-14 classified...only for belle to know...muahah...but yeah ghuuurrr....chilled in gemma's front yard for a long time...tried catching a lil black cat.....saw ivy&anne...dayam..."green golf balls??" haha..and some shit about the "shark??" i still need to knoe that answer....dayam...belle..im tellin' YOU.....someone is missen you and 81211795 you up 24-7...on the realz...[ahem..you should knoe wha i mean..ju get me??]yuuuuppp...i got maddddd shit to telll you OMG you dont even knoe! well..you bes be online at around 23o-245 er else...call me aight!!! wait....you cant call me huh?? fawkkkkkkerrrr!!! aight...mann...me&belle got madddd jokes....fosho....huh belle?? shit...hahahah..on the realz..."hi my name is...PUTIT · IN · MYMOUTH" muahah...whateva yooo...ive been madd thinking about alot of stuff..mostly feelings and emotions..."emOtiOns takin' me Over"...forealll...plain&simple: iWANTsomethingiCANThave.................................BLANK.................[bellehuRRy..IneedaTALKtoYOU...lesjustsay-MADD HLs-]

2002-08-21T09:37:00.000-07:00

[ .LoOong asSs dae. ]
dayam...todae was a long ass dae.....stayed home and chilled for the longest time...watch "enough" but i dint get to finish it...i think i got belle in trouble cuz she was on the phone in the morning and her mom picked up...HOLY SHITBALLLLLSSS...we both hung up..haha..and then i chilled with my kuya bris...whatta RETARD..the most airheaded guy you can ever chill with..foreal.....me.gemma&bris..chilled...i got to drive and waste his gas for 3 str8 hours!!! hahah..dont worry...i owe you..muahah..i went up sullivans parking lot without hittin anything!!! weeeeeeerrrddd..and then i saw ralph.berto.tris.kuya.hertel.&rachel..at the bowling alley..then i went home at around 1130?? watched resident evil with bris.&my brother and sister...me and bris played pusoy dos...had a deeeeep asss talk while i was driving...shit hurts!!! foreal........that sucks............oh! and i got used to driving with my left hand...yayaaaaa!!! oh and bris did this fortune telling thing with the cards....OMG! foreal..that shit was foreal....skuuuurrryyy.....hes a crackhead! dope to talk to though.....hes a softyy...awwwww....he has a bruised rib toOo......i got alot of shit outta him...[highlites........somebody??? ahem......juu knoooee who im talken about...thas rite..YOU..]and yeah...he left around 2 in the morning......mmmmmkaaaaeee.........thas ittttttt......no one talk to bris....hes a retard!!! okaeee........

2002-08-20T02:23:00.000-07:00

[ .mind full of thoughts. ]
tha last week of summer and its wierd..tha guys jes left to go to tha gym...and like...wierd stuff happened...eating peeling skin? wax on your boob..haha...i dunno...mann...sometimes i feel wierd being tha only chick..they are hella dope to chill with and errthang but sometimes i feel like 7434 00177 71153 1773...i like it wen they are there though...wiiiiiieeeerrrddd...i dunnnnnooo....L8Ly..ive been thinking about alot of shit...last nite..i stayed up until around 4?? jes thinkin and reminisin and missing alot of stuff..."hOw yOu gOnna act like that?"--tyrese--i miss alot of things...730172120..who is still not talking to me...geeeezzz...i guess ive jes been thinkin toOoOoOo much that it hurts..especially wha comes to my mind...memories..how things used to be? mann...it sucks wen you want something soOo bad..and its RIGHT there..but you KNOW you cant have it..or cant have it at the moment..."everything happens for a reason"--"its jes not our time...............YET" and i hope it comes sometime before its TOO late..jealousy..mann...i hate that feeling too..wen you knoe that something is SO capable of happening but you just dont want to accept tha fact that it COULD?? mann.."if i could...then i would..." i dunno..mann.."why did you have to gooooo?? why'd you have to turn away from ALL we've been through?????"............imma blog L8erz...

2002-08-19T07:42:00.000-07:00

[ .pusoy dos--"i gOt game!!!!" whea yaLL at?? haha...imma hussllaaala babyyyy!!. ]
dayam..a LOoOoOong assss daee!! foreal..woke up...chilled...kuya&berto came over..chilled for a lil..picked up tris..then berto left..and that was around 2? and then they ended up staying here until 1140?? geeeezzzusss...chilled...and then played N64 for the longest timmmmeeee...belle came over to get her shit so yeah...but i dint really talk to her much...she had to go..and then we decided to play cards..mann..i was clueless?! i have no idea how to play "pusoy dos" then tris taught me...and then like..i like that game...i beat them badddd!!! TWICE! wha do you do with 4 kings and 2 twos??? i mean...haha..."watch out..roanne..tha husslllaaa is coming!!"--> rite tris?? well, it was aight...i had my fun..finally the typhoon is gone! im getting used to that game..after like 4-5 rounds?? weeeerrrdd..well, i hope this week gets better....kaybee called me todae tooo..it was kooooo.....soOo yeah...jes thinking...had some reminising talk with tris...mann...those were some memories..haha..i have to get used to it......i want something i cant have...BLAH

2002-08-18T04:26:00.000-07:00

[ ."you were never THERE!"-->hahaha!!!!! theres a STORM coming!!!!!!! aaaahhhh!!. ]
dayam...whatta LOOOOOOONNGGG dae...foreal...dooode....on the phone from 1-5 in the fricken morning...talked about love lives...reminiscin..and then SNL times?! what losers would do that??? geeeeeezzzzuss...hahah! foreal...wha tha F-word happened todae??? chiLLed...drove...chiLLed...jeff's house...BONUS...haha...scratching?? kooOOoOo..it was dope...sounded niiiiiiiiiiiceee.....umMm...fixing car....forevvvverrr...thinking.thinking.&thinking some more...dont knoe wha to do...well, theres a typhoon coming...mann!!!!!!! there goes tha last free week before skoool fricken starts! im going to eat...

2002-08-17T09:01:00.000-07:00

[ .guess whos back? back agen??. ]
mann, todae was wierd..yeah yeah...IM BACK!!!! muahaha!!! i was madd skurred to see alot of peeps...i have like madd jet lag toOo...cleaned the whole house and errthang....i went out todae...i went to ikego!!! and i saw my loser-sister! haha...BELLE! mann, i cant beleed that ghur be at home grubben 24-7 and she dint get fat!!! as for me...........BLAH! i got clowned on the whole dae! went to ikego.......chilled at pats.........i saw...pat.scuba.francis.ralph.kuya.&belle. and then me.kuya.&ralph took tha train home at like...hmMm......almost 7? and guess wha happened?? we were stuck at the train station cuz our tickets werent enough..and we were 3oo yen short...soOo we were like waiting for american peeps to come by and we saw this one doode..and then i asked if he could change our 5 dollars...with 5oo yen..and he gave me 4oo yen for free!!!! haha..he sed.."naw here..imma jes give it to you" i was like yay!!! i can go home now!! so we was free..walk to base..got picked up by dion&tris..and frances.and her fren..went to ajisai..mcdonalds.ajisai.mongo.but me.tris.&jeff stayed in tha car and jes chilled and waited for errone to get their food..and then tris got hungry and tired of waiting for them that we went to mcdonalds rite quick..and then errone ate at my house..then we jes chilled..i dunno..i thought it was borinnnggg...i mean, my house??? nothing exciting! soOo yeah..i missed my frens though...geeeeeezzz....gotta hug! gotta hug! haha.......[insidejoke]...and like.........one more week till skool starts! omg! i saw my grades todae! weerddd!!! i dint fail shit! gaaaa headdd rooannnnee!! haha...i dunno..shits been koo L8Ly...and like...i still gotta get used to this whole blogger crap...its like a planner........and then i was telling errrone my coOoLest pick up lines..haha!! they are confidential! muahah...well, i think thas about it...belle bout to call me around like 13o in tha morning so yeah....thas all foeee nowwww!!!!! L8errrrzzzz

2002-08-13T14:25:00.000-07:00

haha...beleeddd thaaat!! i got me some help on this shit!!! MUCHOS GRACIAS PIE-YAH!!!..miss yah ghurr!! anyway, jes hea chillen in long beach...HOT SUN..gooooooddd loorshh!! foshhoo..i miss my frens...i feel like i missed out on soOoOo much foreal..hmMm..missed a few inside jokes?! mongo nites...chillen and cruisen daes..wha else?? movie nites..dayam...mann, that pic. on this payge looks funnie..haha..oh well...thanks pie..i want tha one with charlie...mmkae?? wheneva you can fix that..i mean, like..hmMm..i wonder wha errrone is doing rite now?

2002-08-12T02:09:00.000-07:00

tested by piara--------[ .MADD THANKS PIIEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. ]

2002-08-07T13:38:00.000-07:00

[.listening to: "isLand in the sun".]

BLLLAHH!! this stoopid blooger crap is pissen me off..wha tha hell to do?? haha..ju knoe..COMPUTER ILLITERATE...i can mess with these things..yeah rite..i gotta get me some help on this shit..